Yes there is. Chewy has taught me a few more lessons about the living and the dying when I get it all sorted out the sadness and loss will pass. Those empty spots in my life will become great memories.
Squint you are a nice man and I might add a nice looking man which always looks better when you have a warm heart shinning out for all to see.

So, there is still pain! Hopefully subsiding, but still there. I actually think the pain helps the healing, and the thoughts of the happy moments are a sign of that.

I am bothered at times. Especially the first time back to the Mountain. That is the town and house Chewy grew up in and spent most of her barking life. The first time I mowed the yard on the mountain tears came to my eyes. She use to love to lay in the cool wet freshly mowed lawn. She would follow me all over the yard laying in all her special I'm in charge spots.

Hi Avan, How are you doing? Are you down to just remembering the good times, or is there still pain?

What you saw in her face, Avan, was her mustering all the dignity she could manage. She wanted to give you a good memory, not guilt!
She left you with a serene smile on her face, while she still could.
You did right by her, of that I have no doubt.

Thank You for your kind thoughts and words. I do miss her and can’t help but feel I did something bad to her. She was so proud looking so serene and very pretty. As a matter of fact she looked very young. I questioned what I was doing, but the vet did not.

I know how you feel, and I know how awful it is. I know no words are making you feel better, but when you are ready you will start to recover and she will come to visit you.