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• Jersey Roze ♥Jwon's Cyar'ika ♥ 2012/06/07 05:18:36
  

  Thank you. And you're welcome ;D...

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• х lเשє lคยﻮђ l๏שє х 2011/10/12 10:23:43
  

  

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• ♥Almost_Alyssa♥ 2011/09/02 01:00:50
  

  

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• XxJamberxX 2011/08/14 17:36:15
  

  =D

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• kit-Kat:P 2011/08/10 17:22:51
  

  

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• Idc anymore 2011/08/09 21:42:55
  

  I LIKE TEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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• XxJamberxX 2011/08/06 03:11:03
  

  

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• Tudie BN 2011/08/01 01:25:22
  

  
  

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• Left4side 2011/07/29 17:20:05
  

  r that...whichever comes first ; w ;

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• Left4side 2011/07/29 17:09:36
  

  hen pop those pills and get an ice pack woman D8 we cant have sicklings roaming around

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• Left4side 2011/07/29 17:06:22
  

  and how are we this lovely *checks clock* mid afternoon . ___.

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• jt 2011/07/29 16:58:07
  

  

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• Left4side 2011/07/29 16:57:30
  

  hello lil nugget = w =

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• Mopeder 2011/07/25 18:51:12
  

  This is for all of the people who died in the July 23rd bomb attack and shooting rampage in Norway. May they all rest in peace.
  

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• Mopeder 2011/07/15 11:06:26
  

  

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• Idc anymore 2011/07/14 00:59:09
  

  The sunlight shone in through the window bathing the room in soft sunlight. The large windows were open and the white curtains were billowing in the breeze. The light bounced off the white bedspread, sending the room into a golden haze. Elena Gilbert lay awake, staring at the tiny dust particles floating around in the stream of golden light. She felt happy, blissfully happy. This was the most happy she'd felt in a long time; since her parents had died. Since then, she'd always had a small feeling of foreboding, as though she could sense that something bad was going to happen to her. Something bad had happened to her, but that was all behind her now, she'd left all that behind when she'd hopped in Damon's car in the midst of that thunderstorm. Now she was just happy… and slightly sore, but she wasn't complaining; she liked it. She wasn't usually a masochist, but she was willing to reconsider; this was heaven. Speaking of heaven; that was exactly what last night had been; heaven and more. She twisted around with a smile on her lips to face the boy sleeping next to her. God he was beautiful, no, beautiful wasn't colourful enough a word; he was exquisite. And she loved him, more than anything. He was still sleeping soundly, which Elena thought was slightly funny, him being the for...
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  

  The sunlight shone in through the window bathing the room in soft sunlight. The large windows were open and the white curtains were billowing in the breeze. The light bounced off the white bedspread, sending the room into a golden haze. Elena Gilbert lay awake, staring at the tiny dust particles floating around in the stream of golden light. She felt happy, blissfully happy. This was the most happy she'd felt in a long time; since her parents had died. Since then, she'd always had a small feeling of foreboding, as though she could sense that something bad was going to happen to her. Something bad had happened to her, but that was all behind her now, she'd left all that behind when she'd hopped in Damon's car in the midst of that thunderstorm. Now she was just happy… and slightly sore, but she wasn't complaining; she liked it. She wasn't usually a masochist, but she was willing to reconsider; this was heaven. Speaking of heaven; that was exactly what last night had been; heaven and more. She twisted around with a smile on her lips to face the boy sleeping next to her. God he was beautiful, no, beautiful wasn't colourful enough a word; he was exquisite. And she loved him, more than anything. He was still sleeping soundly, which Elena thought was slightly funny, him being the forever alert vampire and all...
  
  She ran her fingers up his forearm, letting the baby soft skin glide under her fingertips. He looked so peaceful, so content. She let her eyes linger on his face for another second before they slowly slid downwards, she got a glimpse of perfect ice-white chest, then some ribs and then finally the trail of hair that led down to regions hidden beneath the white duvet. Regions she was desperate to explore once again…
  
  Damon didn't wake for another hour, but Elena didn't mind, on the contrary, she enjoyed herself, she was extremely content just watching Damon sleep; the way his fingers clutched the sheets, the way his thick eyelashes sat on his cheeks, the way his toes wiggled. He really was the most constantly interesting person she knew; he just couldn't seem to stay still, she could sit for hours just watching him. She lazily trailed her fingertips along his stomach, and then let them go higher; brushing over ribs and then finally resting on his chest, the skin baby-soft under her fingers. Suddenly, the duvet was pulled up over her head, strong arms were encircling her waist and fingers were scrabbling on her ribs; ticking her mercilessly. She screeched, giggling manically and kicking out at Damon, whose hands slid lower, now attacking her bare hips. She pulled the cover off her head and emerged laughing breathlessly, Damon had stopped now, his hands merely caressing her.
  
  "Stop it!" She giggled into the pillow.
  
  "Make me" He countered, nipping her shoulder.
  
  He rolled her on top of him, so she was straddling his waist. Elena looked down at him and a blush crept onto her cheeks as she remembered her naked state. She tried to grab the sheet to cover herself, but couldn't gather enough to gain herself even a stitch of modesty. Damon spied her efforts and cocked an eyebrow at her quizzically.
  
  "Elena, darling, what are you doing?"
  
  Elena's blush deepened; spreading across her neck and shoulders.
  
  "Wait, no, you're embarrassed?"
  
  She nodded her head slightly, her eyes downcast.
  
  "You're embarrassed after last night? Really?" He chuckled, placing a finger under her chin gently, to lift her head to meet his eyes.
  
  Once again Elena nodded, this time gazing into Damon's black orbs.
  
  "You have absolutely nothing to be embarrassed about. You're the most beautiful, perfect thing I've ever seen, and that's saying something; I have been around for quite some time" His signature wickedly beautiful grin crept onto his face and Elena couldn't help but smile back.
  
  "I love you Elena. I love your lips" He brushed his lips against hers softly.
  
  "I love your neck, I love your stomach, I love your waist and your hips and your belly button; I love everything about you"
  
  He rolled on top of her and laid his hands on her, and once again, Elena was completely lost in oblivion…
  
  Sometime later Damon and Elena were back to where they had started. Elena's head was rested on Damon's chest as he threaded his fingers through her hair. Elena closed her eyes and let her mind wander, she thought about her and Damon and everything that had led them to this point of complete bliss. She could barely remember a time when they hadn't been like this; completely in love. She felt as though they had loved each other since the beginning of time, and in a way they had; they had started off as one when their spirits were formed, then they had been separated, destined to search until they found each other. Elena had searched, albeit unwittingly for Damon, she hadn't known what she was looking for, but she'd always had this sort of anticipation, she'd always known that something better was coming for her, and that when she found it she would finally be home. For a long time, she had thought that something was Stefan, but then Damon had come along, and everything had gone to Hell, the most glorious of Hells. He had fucked her whole life up, but she'd loved every minute of it, he'd set her whole world on fire, submerging everything in his out of control blaze.
  
  Elena just lay there for a while, barely even thinking, lost in a lazy state of bliss. The thing that made her rouse was the realization that Damon's hand had stilled in her hair and his breathing had got deeper and heavier. She lifted her head slightly to look to Damon's face and found that he was once again asleep. He looked like an angel or a God or something; so peaceful and serene, with his black hair contrasting against the white pillow and the milky white of his skin covered haphazardly with the white of the sheet. Elena was suddenly struck with a sort of agitation, no, a desperation. A desperation to capture this beautiful moment before it was blown to pieces, but that was insane right? Nothing bad was going to happen. But still, she couldn't stop herself from carefully manoeuvring herself off the bed and walking across the room to pick up her iPhone. She kneeled up on the bed beside Damon and took a picture of him sleeping. She flopped back down and smiled dreamily at it; he looked gorgeous. She didn't hesitate before saving it as her screensaver, God she was whipped! She's always thought that girls who had pictures of their boyfriends on their phones were pathetic, but now she could see the appeal, especially if said boyfriend happened to be the most beautiful boy in the world and now she got to see his face whenever she checked her phone.
  
  She was, well she was beyond anything she had ever been before, happier than she'd ever been before. She wanted to write this down in her diary; to record it, to remember, but alas, she had left her diary behind with her old life. But she had survived without a diary before hadn't she? On the way to the dark dimension she had recorded her thoughts on her… phone. Elena scrolled through her apps until she reached the voice recorder button and then pressed play, preparing to spill her heart out.
  
  "Dear diary, or should I say phone? I can't deny that I feel slightly ridiculous doing this; spilling my innermost thoughts out to a piece of technology, but oh well, it's the best I've got right now. Usually, I would write all this down in my diary, like I have done every day for more years than I can remember, but I don't have a diary right now; that got left behind. Anyway, the reason I'm… speaking? To you right now is because I feel the need to tell you how I feel right now. Okay, right now, on the 18 of February 2011, you Elena Gilbert are happier than you have ever been, seriously, I'm that happy, and it's all down to one boy, a very special boy. That boy is Damon, and he is more than you could ever have asked for, he's sweet and kind and loving and dangerous and he makes you feel free, he's that thing that you've been waiting for, for your whole life. Right now? Right now I feel… perfect, brilliant, in love? Yes, all of those and so much more, I think that maybe this is my reward for all that I've been through; this is what the Guardians are giving me back. About that, I still don't even know how Damon is here, alive, after the Guardians said that he was gone forever, though I'm not complaining, it's a miracle that I got my love back. My theory is, that he came back to life, because it simply wasn't yet his time to die; me and Damon hadn't been together back then, we hadn't got the chance to be together, and that's why he came back, because me and Damon had unfinished business. The most important thing that I have to tell you is that I am engaged! I am going to be Mrs Salvatore, and I guess I've known for quite some time that I'm going to be Mrs Salvatore, I just never thought I would be this Mrs Salvatore; Mrs Damon Salvatore. There is also something else that I should confess… I lost my virginity last night, and it was everything, complete perfection and bliss and oh! I love him so much, and I could keep on talking about how much I love him forever, but right now, although I feel perfect, I'm sweaty and my hair is knotty and I'm in serious need of a shower, so I'm going to leave it there for today. Just remember that right now, Elena Gilbert, you are the happiest you have ever been, don't ever let him leave you; follow him to the ends of the Earth if you have to, just love him forever, because that's all you'll ever need; his love.
  
  Elena locked her phone, smiling softly at the picture of the sleeping Damon that now served as her screensaver, took a look at the real thing, who was still out for the count and then shuffled off the bed, heading down the stairs for the bathroom. She'd never felt so… comfortable? Yes, that was it; she felt comfortable. She had to be comfortable to walk around the house butt-naked, but the way she saw it; this was her house, so she could do whatever she wanted. As she walked to the bathroom, she opened all the windows she came to, letting in golden February sunlight and taking deep breaths of the fresh air. She entered the bathroom and walked over to the large, free-standing tub; she turned the taps on and filled it to the brim, tipping in masses of vanilla bubble bath. She slid in slowly, letting the warm water relax her tired muscles. As she let the warm water surround her and the smell of vanilla tickle her senses, she was transported back to another time, and another bath. A bath she had taken one night in a cheap motel in the middle of nowhere, a bath she had taken before a row, and then a night of cuddling, a night where she had made some realisations.
  
  "Room for one more?"
  
  She was brought out of her thoughts by Damon who was leaning against the doorframe, grinning suggestively. His hair was rumpled and perfectly messy and the only thing he was wearing was the white sheet wrapped around his waist, dangerously low, looking as though it was going to fall off any second…
  
  Elena giggled softly and nodded her head, moving up slightly to make space for him. Damon didn't need to be told twice, he was in the tub in a second, sheet flying to the floor and taught muscles and white skin blurring. He smiled suggestively at her from the other side of the tub, gazing at her through the bubbles. He leaned forward and she did the same, so that their foreheads were resting against one another, she gazed into those midnight eyes and everything was right. She's waited so long for this, and been through so much, and now, finally, she was truly and blissfully happy. Damon closed the gap between their lips and kissed her lazily and languidly, his hands moved under the water to capture her waist and scoot her forwards so her legs were wrapped around his waist. The kiss gradually heated up, turning Elena's stomach into a pool of hot mush. Before Elena knew what was happening, her back was pressed against the bathroom floor, and Damon was on top of her, his hands roaming sensually over her body. He slipped his tongue into her mouth and she was sure that things were going to head the same way as last night and this morning, and she wanted it, she wanted-
  
  Knock, knock, knock.
  
  Damon snapped his head up, their lips disconnecting with a suctioning sound. He growled low in his throat and then stood. She watched him as he wrapped a white town around his waist. She stood and did the same, giving Damon a questioning look.
  
  "I'm going to go and get that, you should carry on with your bath" He smirked wickedly as he spied the water that they had slopped all over the floor, then gracefully left the room, walking purposefully towards the door.
  
  Damon stood staring at the front door, contemplating just walking back up the stairs, picking up Elena and running away from this, but he'd never been one to run away from problems, on the contrary, he'd always been one to face things head on with a smile on his face. But this was different, this was more real than all the trivial battles he had taken part in, this was, this was everything. Everything was on the line. Of course he'd known that Stefan had been searching for him, Stefan was weak and not good at shielding his aura from the probing minds of those stronger than him, which was just what Damon was. He had just hoped that he would have a little more time with Elena before Stefan came along and fucked things up, fucked them up. Bracing himself, Damon twisted his face into the arrogant smirk that seemed to fit him just right, and then opened the door.
  
  The door swung open to reveal Damon leaning lazily against it, cocky smirk in place. Stefan's eyes slid down, to see Damon clad only in a white towel; even his attire seemed to be mocking Stefan right now. Stefan's eyes slunk back to Damon's face, and he wanted to do nothing more than to just punch that smirk right off Damon's lips. But then the two brothers met eyes, and just for a second, Stefan wished that it didn't have to be this way, wished that Katherine had never happened, wished that he had died over 500 years ago an old man, with children and grandchildren and wished the same for Damon. Green eyes met black and Stefan realised that he'd never really even bothered to get to know Damon, they had known each other for almost 600 years, and Stefan honestly didn't even know Damon's favourite colour, and he hated it, hated that after over 500 years they were back to this, that they had only ever been this… But then the moment passed, and all the animosity and hate that Stefan had built up over the years rushed through him, clouding his vision.
  
  "I would very much like it, if you would give me my girl back!" Stefan spat, face twisted into a hard mask.
  
  "I'm not going to give her to you brother, and I would not recommend trying to take her" Damon said just as harshly, his eyes boring into Stefan's.
  
  Stefan slammed his fish into Damon's jaw, and Damon fought back, the two of them locking into the same death-match that they had perfected over their many years. As Damon and Stefan fought it was as though they had come full circle, it was as though after 500 years they were finally back to where everything had ended and started. It was almost as though they had gone back in time, Stefan could almost see Damon's blade smashing against his as they kicked and punched, he could almost see his father in the background screaming at them to stop, because they were brothers and brothers were not mean to be this way… Except this time, it was not Giuseppe; it was Elena, and this was not the 1500's, this was 2011. Elena was stood at the top of the stairs wearing only a white towel similar to Damon's, and Stefan stopped mid-punch, because Elena was obviously not being held here against her will. His eyes moved between Damon and Elena, taking in their similar states of undress and it finally hit him that Elena wanted to be here, wanted Damon, and she had left him for this…
  
  "E-Elena?" Stefan choked out, suddenly feeling faint "Come on, I'm here to take you home" he said slowly, trying one last time to win her over, to get her to choose him, to do something.
  
  She didn't reply. She walked silently down the stairs and stopped in front of Damon, raising a hand to caress his split cheek, wiping off the blood that marred the flesh. She then pulled his face down to her height and examined him clinically and even though Stefan could not see her face, he could sense her wince as she spied his black eye and bleeding nose.
  
  "Are you okay?" She whispered softly, affectionately.
  
  "Aren't I always?" He replied, cracking a smile that Stefan had never seen before; it was neither cocky nor seductive, merely happy.
  
  "No, you may think you are, but you're not invincible" She half cried, half laughed, her voice choked up with emotion.
  
  Damon didn't reply, just ghosted his hand along her forearm in a casually intimate gesture.
  
  Stefan stood and watched the scene unfold in front of him, and he saw the way their eyes locked as though they would never want to look at anything else, saw the casually intimate ways they touched each other, that suggested that they had touched each other like that many a time before. Most importantly, he saw the look in Damon's eyes, a look of pure contentment, happiness, and…love? He had never seen Damon look at anyone that way, not even Katherine who Damon had claimed to have loved, but now he saw this, he knew that that was not the case.
  
  "You shouldn't have come here Stefan" Elena said calmly, breaking Stefan out of his thoughts.
  
  There was something scary about the calm in her voice, something threatening about the way she was looking at him, as though he had broken her most prized possession, but of course, he had in a way.
  
  "I- he, I. I came to take you back home Elena, to save you from him"
  
  Elena looked at him; there was certain clearness in her eyes, which seemed to imply that she had everything figured out, and that scared Stefan for some reason.
  
  "But Stefan, I didn't need saving"
  
  "He took you Elena, this is Damon we're talking about, and he'll use you and take from you and never give you anything in return" Stefan was pleading with her now, trying his hardest to just make her stop looking at Damon like that!
  
  Elena shook her head slowly, droplets flying off her damp hair.
  
  "How can he give me nothing, when he's already given me everything I ever wanted?"
  
  "Elena, he's evil"
  
  "I can't believe that after all this time, and everything that Damon's done for you, you could still believe that he is ultimately evil. He saved your life Stefan, more than once, and I can't even begin to count all of the times he has saved me"
  
  "Elena, please don't do this" Stefan begged "Please don't throw everything away for him"
  
  Elena walked up to Stefan slowly; when she reached him she took both his hands in hers and looked him right in the face.
  
  "I'm sorry Stefan, but it's Damon. It's been Damon for a long time now, it's-it's always been him really if I think about it. I loved you Stefan, I'll always love you, you were my first real love, and you never forget that. But I just, he's- he's my everything Stefan, he's my forever"
  
  Stefan nodded slowly, a look of sadness and defeat crossing his eyes.
  
  "When?" He asked slowly "When did you start loving him?" Stefan didn't know why he was doing this to himself, why he was asking a question when he knew the answer would torture him whatever it was.
  
  "When I first met him, I felt this sort of pull, this need to know him. But it really started when we came to rescue you, being with Damon alone all that time, I couldn't help but let my feelings run free and although I still really loved you, I started to love him as well, but I loved him in a way that scared me, that I wasn't able to handle, so I carried on with you"
  
  "That's why you were acting so strange after you rescued me, when Damon went back to the dark dimension with Bonnie, you missed him and you were jealous" It wasn't a question, Stefan was merely stating a fact, but Elena felt the need to answer. She nodded her head softly, letting go of Stefan's hands.
  
  She walked back over to stand with Damon, drawing patters on his hand with her nail in a way the suggested that she didn't even realise she was doing it. Damon threaded their fingers together and squeezed her hand and Stefan couldn't help but notice the soft smile that graced Elena's lips at the contact. He looked at them standing over there; together. The way they were meant to be. The thought popped into his head randomly and it seemed right. Stefan turned on his heal and walked out of the house, closing the door softly behind him. He walked across the small garden and was about to open the gate when someone sped in front of him; blocking his way.
  
  Damon stood there in all his glory, lounging grace and staggering unhindered perfection, exquisite in a way that always made Stefan bit his cheek in jealousy. Stefan stared at his face, looking into those black eyes that he knew had first belonged to his mother and felt the slightest of pangs of regret. He thought back to that day, the day that his human life had ended, the day that Damon had killed him and didn't feel the sting of hate that he usually felt, he felt acceptance. As he looked into the face of his brother, he knew that it would be the last time, the last time that he would ever see that cocky smirk sitting on that annoyingly perfect face. He looked at Damon and for the first time in a long time, wished that he had taken the time to get to know Damon, he had been told by his father from a young age that Damon was a ne'er do well and an idler, not someone to look up to, and Stefan had believed Giuseppe, but standing here now, Stefan wandered if that was actually the case, or if Damon was just complex and misunderstood to the extreme. Stefan would never know, because this was it, and it was alarming how bittersweet it tasted.
  
  Stefan was startled as Damon slowly extended his hand, Stefan grasped it and held on for a second, once again meeting those ominous black eyes. Damon nodded slightly and then Stefan pulled his hand away. Damon stepped aside and Stefan opened the gate and walked away, walked right out of Damon's life forever.
  
  "Goodbye brother" Stefan heard in his mind, but when he turned to look at Damon all he saw was an empty garden, the gate firmly shut.

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• Tokio Hotel Forever <3 2011/07/12 02:15:45
  

  just thought this was SOOOO cute!
  Awww!!!!
  Girl: What's wrong?
  Boy: I like her so much...
  Girl: Talk to her!
  Boy: I don't know. She won't ever like me.
  Girl: Don't say that. You're amazing.
  Boy: I just want her to know how I feel.
  Girl: Then tell her..
  Boy: She won't like me...
  Girl: How do you know that?
  Boy: I can just tell.
  Girl: Well just tell her.
  Boy: What should I say?
  Girl: Tell her how much you like her!
  Boy: I tell he r that daily.
  Girl: What do you mean?
  Boy: I'm always with her. I love her.
  Girl: I know how you feel. I have the same problem. But he'll NEVER like me!
  Boy: Wait. Who do you like?
  Girl: Oh some boy.
  Boy: Oh... She won't like me either.
  Girl: She does.
  Boy: How do you know..?
  Girl: Because, who
  wouldn't like you?
  Boy: You.
  Girl: You're wrong, I love you.
  Boy: I love you too.
  Girl: So are you going to talk to her?
  Boy: I just did!
  Because you opened this,
  you will get kissed on Friday
  by the love Of your
  life....
  DO
  NOT BREAK THE CHAIN!!
  Your crush will ask you out!
  
  However,
  if you don't send this to at least 10 people by
  at least 12:00 tonight,
  you will have bad luck in your love life for the?
  rest Of your life.
  Just repost,
  please copy and paste!!
  With the name 'Cute' or 'Awww'!!

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• Idc anymore 2011/07/11 23:50:20
  

  I made it to Minneapolis with Tasha and additional guardians because I was in no condition to protect someone when I'm basically incapacitated. We made it through multiple places and even passed Tasha's job, in which she teaches self-defense and finally arrived to Tasha's home. She lived in a residential area; she lived with humans not with Moroi or the "good vampire".
  
  "Tasha, why do you choose to live with humans and not in a good vamp community?" She chuckled at the question I felt as if that was the most stupid question to have asked.
  
  "I'm terribly sorry Dimka for having laughed at you, but I know you've seen my scars those as a result of the strigoi or bad vamps. I was protecting my nephew from them and I relied too much on the guardians when I should have depended only on myself. I won't make the same mistake twice." I listened to her tale and by the end I knew I held a great esteem for her and how she was willing to throw herself for her nephew Christian. I asked Tasha to be shown around to familiarize myself with the location and to be shown to my room. By the time I was shown my room I was exhausted and she let me get some rest and until my shift started. I was lying in bed pondering, and imagining; who am i? Or who was I? I was very curious as to if I was dreaming w...
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  

  I made it to Minneapolis with Tasha and additional guardians because I was in no condition to protect someone when I'm basically incapacitated. We made it through multiple places and even passed Tasha's job, in which she teaches self-defense and finally arrived to Tasha's home. She lived in a residential area; she lived with humans not with Moroi or the "good vampire".
  
  "Tasha, why do you choose to live with humans and not in a good vamp community?" She chuckled at the question I felt as if that was the most stupid question to have asked.
  
  "I'm terribly sorry Dimka for having laughed at you, but I know you've seen my scars those as a result of the strigoi or bad vamps. I was protecting my nephew from them and I relied too much on the guardians when I should have depended only on myself. I won't make the same mistake twice." I listened to her tale and by the end I knew I held a great esteem for her and how she was willing to throw herself for her nephew Christian. I asked Tasha to be shown around to familiarize myself with the location and to be shown to my room. By the time I was shown my room I was exhausted and she let me get some rest and until my shift started. I was lying in bed pondering, and imagining; who am i? Or who was I? I was very curious as to if I was dreaming with the beautiful girl again.
  
  I looked into the window and by the looks of it the Dhampir girl let the princess feed off her, meaning it's our time to strike she'll be at her weakest. The girl may have had a high but quickly coming to her senses and was aware of another dhampir; I called in for people to close in. I backed off knowing the most common form they would try to escape in a car; I was going to cut them off. I spotted them and then we had them cornered and they had nowhere to run; yet the dhampir girl surprised me she was in a protecting stance. And from there I was in another scenario, same dhampir girl yet she was being castigated I did the unthinkable and vouched for her; in doing so I became her mentor. Then another scene the dhampir girl and I were kissing and we were in a room close to having sex, I was going to call out her name in Russian, Roza.
  
  I nearly jumped out of my bed it felt as if those dreams or maybe memories were seconds long compared to the hours long because it was near time for my shift. I felt in odds, I felt befuddled I was missing my life; what did I leave behind or who? I got ready to meet up with Tasha all I hoped was that I wasn't the only one protecting her, at least until I get my memory back. I found Tasha in a workout room which was formerly the garage she had in front of her a dummy; she went for the neck and gave a kick in the groin. I just thought ouch! She then noticed I was in the room and momentarily stopped, then thought and came at me. I didn't think I just acted, I drop kicked her from there I restraint her arms and was basically on her. She was trying to maneuver herself out of my hold and gave up saying, "Mercy."
  
  "Dimka I fail to see how you say you lost your memory. From what I just witnessed you still maintained your badass guardian skills." She praised.
  
  I smiled to think that I am a badass guardian like Tasha makes me out to be, "Tasha do most Moroi know how to defend themselves? Because from what I saw that was skill there."
  
  She became crimson in the cheeks and replied, "No, Moroi don't know self-defense; some may know how to wield their magic and others just rely on the guardians. I know how to use my fire magic, now Dimka you may not remember everything but I would like to practice with you. This would help the both of us, me to improve and you to remember."
  
  I could only smile at the thought, but I accepted.
  
  We got to a distance and readied ourselves, I tied my hair back and she only smiled. It was like my dream I was with the beautiful girl and we were attacking each other but not to hurt the other person, it was more like a training session. I was going to land a hit on the stomach and from there pin her down. Yet she foresaw my plan and blocked with grace as if this was second nature, but I easily saw a another point of target. I went to drop her and that way to pin her; she didn't see this move and she fell. I was in the same swift motion able to restraint her arms and made it impossible for her to escape my hold. We were both heavily breathing and we stared into each other's eyes and I acted; I kissed her. And a name came to me: Roza.
  
  Rose's POV
  
  This was the one time I needed to master Dimitri's guardian mask, she said that it was ok but I would never feel that way because she said there was the possibility of strigoi planning this accident. With Stan here I only nodded and left making up saying I was not well and needed rest. I made my way to my room, shut the door and lay in my bed and coming to my senses that Dimitri was hurt, but he was my badass god that could make it out of anything. I didn't want to be seen but I wanted to know what was going on. I escaped into Lissa mind to get info without looks or stares, she was with Christian. I guessed that she was trying to convince him for the visit to Tasha, than Adrian walked in and all hell broke loose.
  
  "Belikov is the dad isn't he." He stated and not as question, and Lissa has the guardian mask in the making. She hinted nothing, but Christian wasn't in on it and was just confuse about the accusation.
  
  "Lissa what does he mean?" Christian asked, now Lissa was being put under pressure; sure she could handle basically everything but she could never lie to Christian, her love. I think it was time to tell at the very least them, they may understand. I got to my own body and rushed to Lissa's room and found them talking and they all just looked at me and could nearly hear the pregnant joke about to come on.
  
  "I have to talk to you two, Christian we may act like cats and dogs but on some level we can coexist because of Lissa and Adrian I'm sorry I could never correspond your feelings for me. I'm pregnant." I waited for some reaction or something to know if they were still alive. I would have thought that Adrian would've been the less ass about this but nope it turned out that Christian felt compassion for me; like a brother.
  
  "Rose, Dimitri is the father isn't he? It's ok I'm not going to judge or condemn him, but does he know?" I hugged him which seemed out of my character because we hardly tolerate each other.
  
  "He doesn't know because I only found out about it after he left, that's why we wanted to surprise Tasha." He was going to think about it but he seemed like he was going to say yes. Than Adrian looked like he was going to say something, but didn't say anything.
  
  "Rose, how sure are you that Belikov is the father?" Had he really asked me that was an insult.
  
  "Adrian how dare you asked me that? I know the impossibility of two dhampir having a baby but I don't have any explanation for you for the possibility of this. Who knows maybe the shadow kiss affected my physical being?"
  
  Lissa broke the tension, "At the moment we need to get the news to Dimitri and make sure no one finds out about Rose."
  
  Dimitri's POV
  
  I imagined that I kissed Roza but I did kiss a person, Tasha. I opened my eyes and stopped; she opened her eyes and she had pink cheeks. I immediately stood and helped her up, I could say nothing and she didn't say anything. It felt like this was a conflict of interest, I'm her guardian and she is my charge.
  
  "Forgive me Tasha, I was out of line the kiss was a mistake." I earnestly said. That's what made her cold and distant and she left me there in the gym. I didn't know what to do so I followed her, I found her in her room she was pacing and fuming.
  
  She finally stopped her pacing and asked, "Dimitri who did you think you were kissing?" I wasn't sure how to respond her, I mean I lost my memories how could I think to be kissing someone.
  
  "I don't know all I know is that I'm your guardian and you're my charge. You come first." That hit me, they come first.
  
  "Dimitri I have never been one to abide rules, I don't care what the rest of the Moroi think. I've loved you since we were younger and then there was that you had feelings for Rose and I respected your feelings. Than this transfer to be my guardian got me thinking that maybe I had a chance."
  
  When she said Rose a rush came at me and nearly knocked me to the ground with the instance realization, Rose my former student, my true love, and I left her to guard Tasha. It was that she requested me as a guardian and here she's telling me that she didn't know about the transfer. She didn't request any guardian she beyond capable to defend herself. The only thing she would need is to shown the proper way to handle a stake. This was a set up; then I remembered the strigoi and my former mentor's threat: join me willingly or face imamate danger.
  
  "Tasha I remember everything and I came here thinking I'd been assigned to you because you requested it. Just before the plane took off there had been an ambush and Galina wants me to join her I don't know her reasons."
  
  Than it happened; shattering of glass pane and her door being broken down. My instincts were on overdrive; Tasha comes first by the looks of it they weren't strigoi being that it was daytime. I went for the one human or possibly even dhampir by the window; I went for the blunt tackle but I also landed a punch in the side of the head, I was able to subdue him for the next few minutes until I went for the person by the window and he trying to make it to Tasha. I was amazed she was attacking by the looks of it a human because any guardian would not have been sloppy in technique. She was able to take them; I wonder what happened to the other guardians, I only thought that they were subdued or they were in on it. The three were down and we had to make our way to more guardians or a Moroi civilization.
  
  "Tasha we need go to a Moroi civilization there we are bound to find more guardians…" My thought was interrupted when my guardian instincts realized that more people were near. I hushed Tasha and we make swift and light steps to escape this ambush. I took in every detail of my surroundings and I noticed that things became unsoundly quiet. I was going to tell Tasha what to do when I realized she wasn't with me and it happened too fast four people came at me and before I blacked out one last thing passed in my head: she comes first.
  
  Rose's POV Time will pass faster
  
  Dimitri, what are you doing at this exact moment? All I could do is think, Christian said he would help in any way he could. I think he secretly loves babies or kids because we don't joke as much as we used too; I miss that, sometimes. But at hand I need to focus on graduating too; I will make it as Lissa guardian. Right now I was enduring a novice class, combat training; terrific! I felt under the weather but I wasn't going to show that being a little sick will get me down, they would come up with what would you do when protecting your charge you get sick? So I tried to not get too physical with my partner which just happened to be Eddie. I gave him a smile and then instantly I got light headed and he caught me.
  
  "Rose, you feeling ok, you look pale; aren't Moroi only supposed to look pale?" He just knows when to crack joke.
  
  "I just haven't gotten my sun in a while," I was trying to joke, "but I just didn't eat this morning it's all good." After my light headed moment I felt great, ready to take anything. Our novice class ended and then we had lunch and I had an unbearable hunger that I ate double my normal serving and I got looks, like I care. I was joined by Lissa and Christian.
  
  "Hey, it's kind of cute that you're eating for two. So listen we haven't gotten into contact with Tasha or anyone at her home, we'll just wait and make another call later."
  
  Later that night
  
  I just got back from my classes and my afternoon session with Alberta and slumped in my bed; I was in and out of consciousness. I wasn't sure if I slipped into Lissa head or if I dreamt it all up, with hormones and all.
  
  "Christian, I'm worried, why hasn't Tasha picked up?"
  
  "Lissa I couldn't be able to tell you."
  
  "I don't have anything against her but what if she tried something with Dimitri. Just because time has passed that doesn't mean her offer still isn't on the table."
  
  I shot up in bed and sprinted to Guardian Petrov's office to talk to her.
  
  "Alberta, sorry to interrupt you but I need to make a trip off campus with Lissa and Christian; it's urgent!"
  
  "Ok Rose why would I let you do that, you ask for a serious request. I mean to take the Dragomir princess out of the safety of the academy for what reason I ask?"
  
  "I think something has happened to Guardian Belikov, there was an incident where an attempt was made on his life before his take off to Lady Ozera. And Christian has tried to come into contact with them and nothing."
  
  I meagerly swayed her. She seemed convinced on few parts; for sure she didn't see the reason for the need of Lissa or Christian. He is worried for Tasha while Lissa is almost petrified with worry.
  
  "Rose I will look into that request but make no promises. It seems sketchy in certain areas, but taking the Dragomir princess will be out of the question."
  
  "She'll understand, but all I ask is for is to be able to make the trip."
  
  She made what seemed like that fastest call and had my answer.
  
  "It's done, tomorrow you and Christian and Lissa accompanied with 3 guardians will make a hasty trip to and back to Lady Ozera home and back. If anything is out of the ordinary you come back immediately."
  
  I had a smile plastered on my face and on my way out Alberta stopped me.
  
  "Rose be careful."
  
  I rushed back to my room, Alberta knew; in the back of my mind I was certain she knew about Dimitri and me and maybe even that I was pregnant. I was in my room so fast I didn't know I had it in me; I pack lightly because I hoped this was going to be as fast as possible. I plan to inform Christian and Lissa when I got there; I'd spend the night with her. I needed to be calm and collective like a guardian should be. I came to Lissa dorm and knocked and when she opened the door she saw me with luggage and I heard her thought, that I was leaving the academy. I gave her a reassurance hug and explained everything. She was up for an adventure and so was Christian but besides a day vacation he sought find out about Tasha; I had to admit I was worried for her too, I mean she looked like a person that didn't need to be taken care of but she's not invincible. Time was dragging; I need to get there like yesterday. I was calm but I had those gut feeling that something wasn't right. Dimitri and I had never had a bond like Lissa and I but I felt like we did at times. I felt a troubling stress and I know Lissa was anxious to hear from him but she hasn't been stressed like me.
  
  I had to sleep for at least some time, so I closed my eyes and I knew this was a dream because it was a total fantasy. I was with Dimitri and Lissa and even Christian and we were living among humans, with no troubles of evil vampires or problems for Dimitri and me to be together. We were happy and with our kids; I had to do a double take on my kids. My daughter, little Zonnya, had his features like he brown tousled hair and milk chocolate eyes but she obviously she obtained my personality, while Alexey shared my looks and his father's persona of the western reading, loner. These two innocent children were product of our love, and when I turn to the people I was surrounded by I saw their love for them, me and of life. Lissa my longtime friend that I apart from my family I would sacrifice myself for. Christian, Lissa's soul mate, in my book was the never wanted brother, only sometimes than he's wanted. He was crazy for kids; I wondered why they never had kids? Then I turned to Dimitri he had the rare smile that he never seemed to lose and I smiled at him.
  
  Then it was like someone snapped their fingers and it changed to the complete opposite, there was no love or happiness. I was Lissa guardian, that alone was would be an accomplishment, but there was melancholy looming over the atmosphere and I was nowhere near Dimitri, he was probably still Tasha's guardian. What if I was wrong about his feelings? No! I wasn't going to plant any seed of doubt, until I heard from him mouth that he didn't or never loved me. Then a whooshing occurred and it nearly knocked me over but I was placed in front of Dimitri; he questioned me, who is the father of my children? He couldn't be asking this question when clearly looking at them and us two, the resemblance was obvious.
  
  Then I woke up, Lissa and Christian staring as if I grew a third head.
  
  I casually got up and asked, "You guys ready? I'll be ready in about five minutes."
  
  Once I was far enough from them I ran to the bathroom, and threw up probably from both morning sickness and nerves. I seldom felt like giving up, I was never weak for any task, and I didn't plan to start now. This was a time to be stronger for Lissa and my baby and even Dimitri. I cleaned my face and made it out and was in a guardian mode, I got Lissa limited items and took them to the van and then we were all ready and headed to the private school jet. We arrived and before we got out the guardian accompanying us scope out the location to confirm if there were any threats for the last Dragomir princess. We boarded the plane, then I was bombarded with spirits; I felt the spirits their gruesome deaths and the revenge they sought. I tried to put up my wall that blocked them; it was pointless I wasn't in the protection of the wards. I closed my eyes and slowed my breathing and thought calming thoughts; they slowly disappeared until I saw one that seemed the most interesting; he looked like a dhampir.
  
  He mouthed, "S.O.S… Tasha…" Then he was gone, I was losing it; was it possible that he meant Tasha Ozera, I didn't want to think that chance but there it was a chance. The moment for the plane to land couldn't come faster we, I, to prepare for the worst.
  
  Dimitri's POV
  
  I regained consciousness and I found myself bound and had a gag in my mouth, the ringing of my head meant I had a minor head injury. I took into account my surroundings in case of any possible escapes; I was in a basement looking thing. To my left I found Tasha; she was still asleep I hoped. Then to my right were at least three dhampir and a human, to my best ability I could handle them. They saw me move around and they came to me, they had fear and triumph in their eyes. This had to be Galina's doing, she arranged this ruse; whatever reason she needed me for it must be important.
  
  Just then Tasha started to regain consciousness; she seemed hazy and looked disoriented. At least she wasn't a screamer or crier, she was able to sit up and she was giving me looks like wanting to know what happened? What was going on? I couldn't answer her let alone face her, I'd failed her as a guardian; I knew she felt that I had nothing to do with it but this was my fault for carelessly protecting her. This went farther than just not being able to protect Tasha, I have also failed Roza. She doesn't need me for protection but as a form of support she depends on me.
  
  One of the people watching us came to me and knocked me in the head it didn't fazed me but the swelling felt as if it multiplied. Tasha had a worried look on her face; I gave her a nod to reassure her. I need to found a way out; I tested the strength of the bounds, I needed to give Tasha a signal to use her element. She was in and out of REM sleep; possibly weakened from the lack of blood. She finally saw me, I don't know if it was because she was hungry or because I finally caught her attention. She saw me emphasizing my bounds and she then used her fire element and they burned away. I had moments before they reacted; they were weakened to the point of me being able to rip them apart. I was in action before anyone could see me coming; I took out the human and a dhampir which were easy and the other two seemed to have had me in a hold then the next thing I knew they were on flames. Tasha was lighting them on fire.
  
  This almost seems too easy, and it was because I was on guardian mode to the extreme; and I saw that on the next level of the structure were more dhampir and humans. Who knew maybe even strigoi were in on it? Then I turned to Tasha, she had a grin and what happened next I never expected from her…

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• ♥EnjoyTheSilenceWhileItsThere♥ 2011/07/08 03:40:12
  

  good!!i gotta go sorrrrrryyy!!

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