YourCompanionCube

• M
• 16
• VA, US

Hey. My name's a great many things. I have so many, I occasionally forget how many. You can just call me Your companion cube. Your Very own, special Companion Cube. I may not agree with you, I may not get along at times, But I will try my very best to be kind. I'm a passive/assertive type. I used to be a christian, A methodist. United Methodism does not represent my beliefs, and their LOW consideration of others' opinions pisses me off. I won't delve on exactly what happened between me and the other members of the Sect, but I'm done with it. I considered Baptist, But I didn't want much to do with any religion. Just wanted to have my own beliefs, and not have to Share them, Force them, or having them be the cause of argument. Until I found out about Spiritualism. My grandmother is a spiritualist heathen, and introduced to me the Doctrine. I felt it speak to me and it agreeable. So I became a Spiritualist. I still believe in God, but not the Christian, Jewish, or Muslim God. I take part in spiritualistic circles.

I'm not a sensitive person, I can take most insults, but sometimes I can be hurt very deeply. And I can't just deal...I take it out on myself. In various ways.

Eminem said once "I don't care if you're black, white, red, yellow, gay, straight, bisexual, transgender, Short, Tall, Young, Old," If you're nice to me, I'll be nice to you. I don't really like his Music, But I like that. And even if you aren't nice, I still love you. I can't hate anyone ever. No matter how you act, No matter what you say, I can't hate you. I might get mad, I might fight back, I might get angry, but I won't hate. I'm a bit of an outsider to most. I don't get along with peers, I can't find intelligent conversation often, and I'm considered an outcast. I just want to be noticed or accepted. I am recognized by Facial expression and my off-beat, often sick, but hilarious sense of humor and jokes. I can go from one topic to another in a flash, just like that. I like TEA! Lol. My favorite kind of Tea is Black Dragon Pearl, or Lemongrass. I love to cook and bake as well.

I've hurt myself... So bad... Too many times. Cuts over healing wounds over scars, so many times, crisscrossed over and over and over eachother... 1098 cuts across my body. Scarring. Permanent.

Yeah. I've been homeschooled most of my life. I have a very heightened set of morals and beliefs...But I do not believe in judgement or hatred. Acceptance and Love are the two most important things, and the things that I try to show. The golden rule, treat others the way you want to be treated.

I'm not Religious. You might immediately think of me as such, But I am not religious. I despise Religion, Rash judgement, and hatred. I despise Diversity and conflict. My belief is based on faith and spirit alone. All Religion does is define us. We should be defining ourselves with our own actions. Not letting a perspective or ideology say who we are.
The reason I dislike Christianity is because too many adults and teen christians lack perspective. In fact, I hate Religion, Atheism, what the **** ever because too many people are so fricken full of themselves, are way too fricken devoted and have unquestioned doubtless faith in shit they probably don't even have a slight understanding of. You need to doubt, you need to study, you need to Look around and get a sense of things, what you really think, what you really do, before you decide what you are.

Too many of these stupid kids I know, they claim to be christian and yet here they are ignorant of what our pastor preaches to them, still immersed in the sin of the world. Too many kids, not knowing Shit about politics, can't critically think or offer any argument, the guy who comes to me who I can debate wih, it's a rare occurence.

You don't have to love me, agree with me, or anything, but accept me. Just accept me, and I'll do the same.


As of 3/5/2013, I have officially stopped harming myself... I'm very proud of it now, But I didn't stop on my own...it had to take...a downfall. It took a so-called friend to misuse my trust, betray me by telling her friends... it had to get back to me to the point where I had to admit it to people, where I had to get "assistance". And the friends who reported me to the authorities, I was angry at them, but I understand They did the right thing...they were trying to help...this person...I misplaced my trust in, she lied, she cheated me...I forgave her, and she didn't even accept it, yet she acted all guilty in front of my friends... Sigh. Well it's done. And I'm done for now.

UPDATE: Let's just say... old habits don't die. but People do... and fuck if the friends I got left who still gave a shit are gone, going, or dead.

Ugh.... I'm just sad. Depressed. Screwed up. Fucked up. Just sorrowful. and tired. so tired.

Well, I'd like to meet most of the people on my friends list. I'm not going to list names, I know people get embarrassed that way, so I won't... :D

Music, Gaming, Role-Playing, Working Out, Pennsic War, Reading, Writing, Swimming, Biking, Fencing, Meeting people, seeing the world. I play System Shock 2, Orange Box, Max Payne 3, Minecraft, Gears of War 3, Elder Scrolls Oblivion, Skyrim, GTAIV, Modern Warfare 2, Fear 2, Portals 1 and 2, Doom, Doom II, Marathon, Halo, Halo 2 and 3, ODST, Battlefield 3, Rock Band 3, All LoZ games, Most mario games, Quake Arena, Star Wars KOTOR, Republic Commando, Battlefront 1 and 2, SW Jedi Knight, Dark Forces, Jedi Outcast, Left 4 Dead 2, Resident Evil 0, 1, 2, and 4, Silent Hill 1, 3, and 4, Fatal Frame, Halo 4, Black Ops 2, The Mass Effect Trilogy, Alone in the Dark, and so many more. My gamertag is JackKrauser1140 *subject to change if I get really bored, ;D

I am involved in the SCA, and love to do Pennsic. Pennsic is a middle ages Re-enactment starting every year at the end of July to a few days after August. I love to do it, as for me it is an escape from the reality and hell that is my life. I spend every year waiting for it. I know multiple styles of Martial Arts, I like to swim, bike, and run. I drum, and play piano. I also have interests in the Sullen Art Collective, I think they are interesting. I am a big fan of HP Lovecraft and the Lovecraftian universe as well.

most kinds of music. Bands:

my big five;

Pantera
Breaking Benjamin
HIM
Nightwish
Blink-182

Everything else;

Third Eye Blind
The Pogues
Anthrax,
Beastie Boys
Slayer,
Metallica,
Megadeth,
Lit
Live
TooL
P.O.D.
Dropkick Murphys
Dimmu Borgir,
mayhem
Burzum
Suicide Silence,
Black Veil Brides,
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Creed
Staind
Led Zeppelin
The Who
Jimi Hendrix
Gotye
Axis of Awesome
Murderdolls
Stone Sour
Slipknot
Disturbed
Joe Satriani
Cannibal Corpse
The Black Dahlia Murder
Tribe
Rage Against the Machine
Avenged Sevenfold
The Cure
The Killers
The Smiths
Bullet For my Valentine
Yngwie Malmsteen
Dio
Black Sabbath
Judas Priest,
Iron Maiden
AC/DC
GWAR
KISS
Still Alive and Want you Gone from the Portal games
Halo game music
Metroid Music,
Nirvana,
The Clash
Ramones,
U2,
Green Day,
Pre-Minutes to Midnight-Era Linkin Park
System of A Down,
Wolgemut
Rammstein
Falco
Merlin
Black Obelisk,
Rush
Yes
Foreigner
.38 Special
Lynyrd Skynyrd
And all the other bands I missed.

Clone Wars,
NCIS
Psych,
Gangland,
Twilight Zone
Firefly,
Death Note,
Ruroni Kenshin
Band of Brothers.

I have seen so many, but my favorites would be;

Monty Python and the Holy Grail
Highlander
We Were Soldiers,
Black Hawk Down,
Ju-On: The Curse
Bunshinsaba
Act of Valor,
The Rock,
Aliens,
The Expendables,
Blade Runner
Star Wars (All of them)
Indiana Jones And the Last crusade
Raiders of the Lost Ark,
Terminator
The Matrix
Carved
The Dark Knight,
Batman,
Batman Begins,
The Dark Knight Rises,
Avengers,
Iron Man,
Timeline,
The Call of Cthulhu,
Spaceballs,
Robin Hood: Men In Tights,
more.

My Favorite BOOK EVER is Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte

Fahrenheit 451, by Ray Bradbury,
Rogue, by Michael Z. Williamson
When Deplomacy Fails, By Michael Z. Williamson
Republic Commando: Triple Zero, by Karen Traviss
Ender's Game, by Orson Scott Card,
Republic Commando Order 66 by Karen Traviss,
Halo: Contact Harvest, by Joseph Staten
Halo: The Fall of Reach, by Eric Nylund
The Stand, IT, and the Shining by Stephen King,
The Call of Cthulhu, by H.P. Lovecraft.
In the Company of Heroes - Michael Durant
Rogue Warrior and Red Cell by Richard Marcinko
The Art of War by Sun Tzu,
The Giver, by Lois Lowry
Animal Farm by George Orwell,
1984 by George Orwell
The Inferno and Purgatorio by Dante.

I am technically not for religions. I don't like religions. I'm more of a spiritual person. Religion, being "religious" is not the point. Faith and Spirit are the most important things. Whatever religion you are, it doesn't matter. God, I don't think he cares about those things, as long as you have faith in him and accept his spirit. We shouldn't have to worry about our differences, like how protestants and catholics are different, or as far as how Jews, Christians, and even Muslims are different, we all really worship the same God. The same higher being. Why does it matter, It shouldn't matter *what* we are, but what truly matters is *what we do*.

I did the work:
9x-7i>3(3x-7u)
9x-7i>9x-21u
-7i>-21u
7i>21u
i<3u

Not in Cruelty
Not in wrath
The reaper came today
An Angel visted
this gray path
and took the cube away.

Dr. Ben Carson,

Margaret Thatcher

Richard Marcinko,

My very amazing, Inspiring, upbeat, and so optimistic Piano Teacher: Miss Lynne,

My good friend Emelia...for always being there, when I need her. And I'm always there for her.

My good friend Jonny....Rest in peace man. You gave me support when I needed it, I'm sorry I wasn't there to support you...and you turned to other methods.

Maynard James Keenan

Travis Barker,

All the badass Men and Women of the Armed Forces, Coast Guard, National Guard, Police, Fire, & Rescue,

My old pastor for helping me get back on my feet when I lost hope and went through withdrawl and depression, Also because she's awesome...

my few, good, Close friends for supporting me...

and many of you.