Am I Crazy?

by Kayla's Prince ☭ Posted 2012/04/08 23:13:10

Related Topics: Queen, Sex, Torture, Crazy, Body, Crashes, Kissing, Future

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	What the f*ck did I just read?	15 votes	38%

I'm starting to think I have a psychological problem of some sort & this is a problem and I want help for it because it's bringing my life down and I'm always depressed or have suicidal thoughts, anyways basically I have what I wanna call an "attachment" problem where I basically become attached or in love with a woman quicker then most guys, all it takes is for the girl to shows some kind of love, kindness, or care towards me and I'm hooked. This process takes about a week tops, and when I fall in love with her she is my world and I treat her like a Queen and do anything that makes her happy and my world is complete, then a month kicks in and the girl usually dumps me for someone, usually a douchebag but then I have this homicidal thoughts a urges, I can't bare the thought of some inconsiderate arrogant fuck, kissing my Queen and being all over her and worse then that... Having sex with her... My world crashes and I'm not nice anymore, no love or consideration for human life, only hate and revenge... I haven't had to good of a life, and no one has ever showed me any real love like her and that fuck face took the only good thing out of my life.. We were going to lose our virginity together but her took that from her... Now he ruined her personality, and she won't even talk to me anymore.. So I am thinking... I wanna Kill him, torture him first then kill him and burn his body... She has been stolen from me and is no longer pure, so Sadly I must kill her too then cremate her and keep her close to me always, and find a place somewhere and lay her ashes on the ground then kill myself and for all eternity be with her... I can't stop the thoughts, I can't get her out of my head I can't move on... I've tried therapy and everything, I simply can't go on in less this happens... I don't know what to do.... I love her... I told her my plans and she is aware of the future, so I gave her a chance, but what I really want is for her to kill me, I will fake a fall and drop my gun letting her pick it up so she can shoot me.. Shouldn't be hard since she is going to be a cop soon, but it sure would be an honor to die by her hands...

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JanHopkins 2012/04/09 05:25:37

Yes!

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Get some therapy.
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(▪‿▪)DoctorWhoGuru(▪‿▪) 2012/07/11 03:04:39

Yes!

everybody is little crazy

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Kayla's... to (▪‿▪)Do... 2012/07/13 03:32:54

+1
Um, well thanks lol... I guess... I already killed her boyfriend, now I just gotta find her... I already feel Happiness... Something I haven't felt in a while...

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Linnster 2012/05/05 19:42:04

What the f*ck did I just read?

I don't know if you're crazy or not, but I can tell you this. Few women like being smothered - especially after only a short time with a guy. You're much too intense. You think because YOU want her that badly, she has to feel the same way about you. Well, it doesn't always work out that way. This guy didn't "steal" her away from you - she didn't want to be with you and she probably jumped at any opportunity to get out from under what she saw as an unhealthy relationship with you. Stop blaming her and her new boyfriend and take a good look at yourself and your behavior. The only one you have to blame is yourself. If you want to have a normal relationship with a woman, you need to get yourself some help with your issues. Women aren't possessions - they have free will and if they don't want to be with someone, they have that right and they shouldn't have to worry about you killing them because they chose to leave you.

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Kayla's... to Linnster 2012/05/05 22:20:58
Linnster to Kayla's... 2012/05/05 22:49:18

After careful consideration of all your posts and your response to mine, I think you ARE crazy and I what I need is to beprotected from people like you.

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Kayla's... to Linnster 2012/05/06 05:37:26

I'm crazy for having a different political ideology? You do realize there are civil wars everyday in many countries right? Doesn't make you crazy. Screw the girl I don't care about her anymore she was just a girl, there will be plenty more of them. People like you are what cause things to get corrupted because you encourage apathy and are single minded, you think anyone different is dangerous which is true for most part but when the different person wants to help the world or whatever and you still hate him, you are bad... One lesson you will learn in life is that only the strong survive, and you most adapt and that is what I have done, I have seen life and people for what they are, and they are dangerous to themselves because democracy encourages apathy n tolerance which lead to a dying society with no self respect, a whoreish nation if you will. And that is what the people become. Ever wonder why people in America are so divided and corrupt? Why they are so sick and in Communist, Nationalist or any state like such have well mannered people with morals and shared beliefs and almost no crime...

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Linnster to Kayla's... 2012/05/06 15:08:25

You aren't crazy for having a "different" political ideology, but for having the one you've chosen. You're all of 17 years old and you're telling me what I'll learn in life? Don't make me laugh. I didn't get to be 66 knowing nothing. I'm happy to accept differences, but not someone that believes in the abolition of democracy. I don't need anyone to tell me how to act, what i can and can't do or who I can or can't associate with. Talk to me about life when you have more of it under your belt.

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Kayla's... to Linnster 2012/05/06 18:07:26
Linnster to Kayla's... 2012/05/06 20:28:55

We'll never know, will we? But I will tell you this. You can blame your shortcomings on others or you can own them and do something about them. If you're on your own and taking care of yourself, you can change whatever your life is going forward. The choice is yours.

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Kayla's... to Linnster 2012/05/07 04:40:55

Watching a dying society die faster is a goal I'd like to work towards.

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Vision of Verve 2012/05/05 19:12:25
Kayla's... to Vision ... 2012/05/05 22:13:51

Already tried going to treatment centers, nothing helped... Nature will run it's course I suppose.

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jtfm 2012/04/11 17:59:24

Yes!

Yup. Sounds like the results of the wrong pharmaceuticals you've been given. And too much TV. You are a danger to yourself and others.

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Kayla's... to jtfm 2012/04/15 23:01:52

Due to my militant life style I never watch TV.... Nor do I take meds....

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Andrew 2012/04/11 01:31:15

What the f*ck did I just read?

What!?

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AliasOther 2012/04/10 16:10:18
Kayla's... to AliasOther 2012/04/10 21:54:26

You obviously do not fully understand my situation and no I didn't post this for attention.. And I have no respect for human life in less a human earns it...

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AliasOther to Kayla's... 2012/04/12 20:25:01

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That is still a silly statement. You should have respect for human life period.

This new statement leads me to say that if you dated her then you at one time respected her having life. She was not born to live up to your expectations she was born to live up to gods expectation or what ever she believes in.

I hate weak ass men who cant control themselves or don't take care of their responsibilities. If i were like you then that would mean that i should KILL YOU cause my definition of a man you can not fit or live up too.
So should i tie you to a chair in a room and keep throwing hornets nest in their until you are dead??????

>>> And I have no respect for human life in less a human earns it... <<<

what makes you think that you know how to earn it? As i said you are pathetic and to me, based on your matrix, you should be killed.

What about racist who think that every black & hispanic kid with a hoodie should be dead?

what about all of the married people who are in bad marriages that think their hubby/wife should be dead?

Should that be justified??

Like i said, you over all thought is weak and because so i think you have less ability to judge who should be dead or alive than anyone on the blog. (- racist)

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JonDeniro 2012/04/10 16:01:50

No..

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I suspect you are merely seeking attention. However, if your post truly characterizes your thoughts and feelings, then you should seek the services of a psychologist...for your own sake as well as the safety of others.

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Leo 2012/04/10 15:55:55

No..

I hate to tell you kiddo but a lot of it has to do with your age. I always assumed I was crazy when I was that age but I didn't trust adults so I kept it to myself. I was afraid they'd put me in some institution. As it turned out, it didn't take that long to fall for someone else and then the craziness in me calmed down when those feelings were returned. You have to look forward and assume the best. Believe me, if you die now you will miss out on all the wonder and joy that fills your life when it all finally comes together. And it's like they say - when you least expect it...

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Einstein's Firecracker 2012/04/10 15:47:01

Yes!

I know what it's like to fall in love too easily, I do it. I think the biggest problem is that you become so enthralled that you set expectations too high and you smother her. You'd be better off in a relationship to treat her a friend than an admonished, object of desires. If she chose a douchbag over you, then she is not the right one for you. She wants to please him, not he has to please her. She's becoming a cop to serve. Find someone who is your'e equal, someone who gives as much as takes. To be so angry, that you want to kill them or yourself, to me, is a sign of weakness. You may be in pain over the loss, but there are plenty of women out there, so get some strength, move on, and don't look back. No need to keep reopening those wounds. Seriously, get over it. The quicker the better. Those chains and baggage will only weaken you. Do really love her? Love is subjective and can be placed anywhere with enough conviction. I think you love yourself even more, because you feel you are the only one for her. You want her to kill you? Then you are selfish to do that to her, to put her through that situation. And, also weak if you can't do it yourself. Who's to say if she will even show any remorse? Hey, I've had moments of suicidal thoughts, I could put my gun...

I know what it's like to fall in love too easily, I do it. I think the biggest problem is that you become so enthralled that you set expectations too high and you smother her. You'd be better off in a relationship to treat her a friend than an admonished, object of desires. If she chose a douchbag over you, then she is not the right one for you. She wants to please him, not he has to please her. She's becoming a cop to serve. Find someone who is your'e equal, someone who gives as much as takes. To be so angry, that you want to kill them or yourself, to me, is a sign of weakness. You may be in pain over the loss, but there are plenty of women out there, so get some strength, move on, and don't look back. No need to keep reopening those wounds. Seriously, get over it. The quicker the better. Those chains and baggage will only weaken you. Do really love her? Love is subjective and can be placed anywhere with enough conviction. I think you love yourself even more, because you feel you are the only one for her. You want her to kill you? Then you are selfish to do that to her, to put her through that situation. And, also weak if you can't do it yourself. Who's to say if she will even show any remorse? Hey, I've had moments of suicidal thoughts, I could put my gun to my head, but that is a cop out, a weakness. I have asperations to make a mark or some difference in this world, and that's my strength. I can go on for some reason. to acheive a goal. I have some regrets over past loves, not knowing what could have been, but I have more reliefs know they were bad choices and I realize that now. Someday, I will meet the right woman, and have a great relationship. It's what I have to look forward to.
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bblair125 2012/04/10 15:03:13

What the f*ck did I just read?

Take it from one whose had therapy and been on medication... you need a bit of both.
Please return to therapy, don't give up on it. You should talk to a Psychologist, Psychiatrist, professional.

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Racefish 2012/04/10 12:36:53

No..

+1
You're far too young to worry about it at this point, but now your hormones are kicking in. What you probably need is some way to work off those surging chemicals driving you up the wall. Talk to your doctor and see what he says.

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La 2012/04/10 12:27:37

Yes!

You do sound a bit crazy. Therapy didn't help? You sound pretty young. Being young is hard as it is. Erm.....you need to be seeing a good doctor or something....you might need to be on medication temporarily, until things calm down.

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unreligious 2012/04/10 11:47:45

What the f*ck did I just read?

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If what you wrote is really true you need psychological intervention now. You need to find a therapist who can help you work through your obsessions. Because that is what you have. You are mistaking obsession for love. You should also enter into anger management classes. Just reading what you wrote shows why you can not keep anyone in your life. People want someone who compliments them not someone who obsesses over them. Most people would not view you as a lover but as a straightjacket. You also need to work through your feelings of unworthiness and why when someone shows you the least bit of kindness you feel that you are on the road to martial bliss (even that is an unrealistic expatiation, as most marriages are not pure bliss). Your problem is not so much of an attachment problem as one that you do not love yourself. If you do not love yourself people will perceive this and react to you accordingly. Good luck.

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Lawnmowerman~PWCM~JLA 2012/04/10 05:47:04

No..

You just need a job writing after-school movies.

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Jackal 2012/04/10 03:12:33

No..

+1
You are not crazy, just need help. Most people need to see a therapist. Even I see a therapist about my PTSD.

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~♥Sun Kissed♥~ 2012/04/10 02:55:18

What the f*ck did I just read?

+1
Crazy? No. But I think you do need help before you hurt yourself or someone else. That doesn't mean your crazy. I think there MIGHT be some psychological problem going on.
Maybe you just need to talk it out. But think things threw before you act. If you wanna talk to someone just to vent you can always message me

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Inquisitve Kat 2012/04/10 02:05:05

Yes!

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You need to continue with more therapists, keep trying, it often takes many attempts. You have to want to help yourself.
If you can't help yourself, and you really care for her, you must be perfectly honest with therapists about how far your feelings go, even if that means you end up institutionalised. If you do end up institutionalised, remember, it doesn't have to be forever. It may seem impossible, but you truly can conquer your demons!

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PhillipDavis 2012/04/10 01:53:47
Prion Indigo 2012/04/10 01:45:25

No..

I understand. Perhathps you are of the Scorpio temperament?

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Kayla's... to Prion I... 2012/04/10 01:47:11

+1
I am a Libra, the worst sign... It's a gift and a curse... A gift because I can actually love, and a curse because I can never forget and I can never let go. My life must be balanced and when things become out of balance I take upon myself to fix them at all costs...

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Prion I... to Kayla's... 2013/02/13 04:59:18

Lol, I thought being a Scorpio was the worst, the misunderstandings, the extreme emotional states, the unreality, the almost polar opposites, the madness...

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Prion I... to Kayla's... 2013/02/13 04:59:54

I do not go by the stupid dates, those are scientifically inaccurate. I go by the temperament.

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Max7 2012/04/10 01:27:37

No..

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I don't know you, so I can't say yeah or nay to your question, but what I can say is that your question is depressing, and you should understand that your confession is your destiny. If you think that you have a psychological problem, guess what? you have a psychological problem. You state that you are always depressed, hey, you're confessing depression to bring your life down because with your thoughts and words you are entertaining suicide, you are claiming a lot of negative stuff in your life. Why don't you turn your way of thinking around, and speak some positive things into your life. You know, be like the little choo choo train, when things come up against you, tell yourself, I think I can, I think I can, and you will, your confession is your destiny, if you speak negative things all of the time, that's what your life is going to be full of, but if you began to speak positive you'll have a more constructive life. If you don't love yourself, it's going to be impossible for you to love a woman, and if you're as negative as what you have written, the average woman won't stay in your life long, no woman wants a whiner.

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Prion I... to Max7 2013/02/13 05:05:20

I met a guy like that, several women, including me and a friend of mine, left him....because he did was complain about how miserable he was and he had nothing to be thankful for (not even us who spent so much time trying to care for him). :(

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Max7 to Prion I... 2013/02/14 00:58:31

It's hard to help someone, who doesn't take steps to help themselves. You feel for them, but they render you helpless, and if you're not careful, they will pull you down. Which is why, when I feel down, I pretty much stay to myself until I get it together, because I don't want to pull others down.

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Prion I... to Max7 2013/02/14 04:52:49

Yeah, that is a good practice. I stopped being friends with him. All he did was try to give me advice and criticise any advice I'd give.

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TimothyBrianFoley 2012/04/10 01:25:34

What the f*ck did I just read?

i have been sent to hospital for whatever reason called presectory delusions fearing god's wrath doesn't make you crazy I have been sent to get help maybe its always stress and aniexty need a hobby or find something you are passionate about acting or and medelling can be the answer or writing a novel be aware of people that want your money even some church groups are not to be trusted look at rick santorum using church services and faith as a form of human trafficking you are not crazy but you just need to be careful who to trust sounds like you trust nobody use that Instead of Insanity then the world will seriously think so.

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Alexis 2012/04/10 00:58:51

What the f*ck did I just read?

I hope that was just to let off some steam, you can't be serious about taking two lives and then taking yours? Why just because a relationship failed, hers will most likely to? You will find someone some day, right now you seem very obsessive and it's not healthy. Do not take someone's life, they have families and a future ahead of them. So do you, you'll get over this funk your in. Do not seriously try any of this.

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