SodaHead - Marianne's Blog

Moving out!

2007-06-18T18:40:55Z

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since im very lazy today ill just copy it straight from my live journal (which has been super neglected lately cos of sodahead, tsk tsk tsk)!

16 June 2007 @ 03:39 pm

Movingsters

So yeah after ages trying to find a place, we finally diiiiiiiiiiid!

We get to move one week from now :D Yaaaaaah man, is it saturday yet?!

We've been getting lots of house stuff which is cool, but kinda sucks cos it can be quite expensive!

Brits working ot today which means more money but sucks that we dont get to hang out.. at least we can talk on msn lol and shes off in 20 mins so woooooooooooooooooo!

We've been buying way too many dvds... but thats good cos once we move out we wont really have money to go out, and at least that way we have entertainment.

What elses? I dont knows.

I have cramps :( it sucks.

Laters!

OH I got 5 books yesterday :d we went to value village and they had some pretty good deals. we got the diary of anne frank, only child, the 7th child, the green mile & the exorcist. All under 11 bucks lol quite nice buy, even if I end up not liking the horror ones... Im pretty sure that at least anne frank + the green mile were worth it. Funny thing is that I was actually looking through every single book to find the bad seed and anne frank.... couldnt find either, and then all of a sudden I see this book that fell on the floor "staring" at me, and it was ANNE FRANK. I was excited :D I'm a geek :D

ok.. i guess its laters now :D xxxx

Tags: books, brit, life, moving out

Current Location: puters room

Current Mood: okay

Current Music: songs from charmed

catch and release

2007-06-14T05:35:21Z

Marianne

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some random quote that i loved: there falls no shadow where there shines no sun. ok, nights.

Ativan I love you

2007-05-25T05:45:39Z

Marianne

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so my panic attacks or whatever just got worse and worse.

long syoru sjrt the doctor gave me an ativan and now life looks cool agan :D

im so out of it tho i need sleep but no im still babysitting. actually the kid is in bed, and brit is on the couch as they didnt want me on my own. and the mom knows so its ok. junior was grea today. brit and i want to keep him. i wonder what his mom will think

we went to the clinic and it was closed which made me freak ot again wooot. then to the hospital which was supposed to be 169 only but nooooo it was 4300 cash. who the hell carries 43 hundred in caaaaash. sure we have hat but mmmmmmmm

so they sent us to a walk in clinic down the road, which turned out to be a 25 buvkc cab away (y)

the doctor said i have to try and use breathing techniques and that its not all in my head but i make it worse so i have to calm down blah blah blah and then the best part of the night, the glorious ativan. oh man how awesome it is to breathe. BREATHING SHOULD BE LIKE LIKE i dont know, something awesome. oh breathing how i love you.

and now im a lil out of it but i fuess im supposed to be passing out by now but i gotta stay up til juniors mom get here. then beit and i will take a cab home.

thats the story for today.

nigth nfhti!

,aroi

Someone make me stop listening to..

2007-05-15T21:37:05Z

Marianne

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.. time is running out by muse. seriously. it has to stop. *sings* i blame it on live 8. *sings more*

I think I'm drowning
asphyxiated
I wanna break this spell
that you've created

you're something beautiful
a contradiction
I wanna play the game
I want the friction

you will be the death of me
you will be the death of me

bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

our time is running out
our time is running out
you can't push it underground
you can't stop it screaming out

I wanted freedom
bound and restricted
I tried to give you up
but I'm addicted

now that you know I'm trapped sense of elation
you'd never dream of
breaking this fixation

you will squeeze the life out of me

bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

our time is running out
our time is running out
you can't push it underground
you can't stop it screaming out
how did it come to this?
ooooohh

you will suck the life out of me

bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

our time is running out
our time is running out
you can't push it underground
you can't stop it screaming out
How did it come to this?
ooooohh

chocolate i want you

2007-05-11T02:40:15Z

Marianne

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I have a chocolate bar.
A beautiful, yummy looking king size aero bar (which i had misplaced for a moment and thought i had lost it forever, the sadness!!!).
I cant bring myself to eat it though. If I do, itll be gone :(
It would be awesome if someone invented one thatd last forever.
SIGH

Shared polls

2007-05-11T00:54:44Z

Marianne

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What ever happened to those? I never get them anymore :( If I get 3 a day it's a miracle!

Monday bloody Tuesday bloody Wednesday bloody Thursday.....

2007-05-10T22:13:01Z

Marianne

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Here's to another entry full of whining, and complaining.

Monday - I get home and Brit's in bed hardly moving at all. The ambulance had been called already, and her mom and sister wouldn't even face me. I cried my eyes out with her when they both left. She kept reassuring me it was okay, she'd be okay etc etc Asked me to promise her that if she needed to go to the hospital, that I'd make it there one way or another. When the paramedics got there, they said her vitals were fine, and even though she wasn't feeling good it would be worse if she had to wait in the hospital for hours. So no hospital on monday. I just did all I could to make her comfortable for the rest of the night.

Tuesday - I had to babysit until 11:30pm. We'd been calling each other back and forth, and then I didnt get any other calls.. I just assumed she was sleeping. I called her at 9ish to make sure everything was okay. Her mother answers to let me know they're in the hospital. Hospital. With me stuck here. No idea how she was. I obviously panicked. Cried my eyes out once again. I can't handle stuff like that dude. Especially when there's nothing I can do. I know should be stronger, but I kinda lost it. Anyway, by the time I left they were heading home already so I didnt have to go to the hospital. She was really out of it, as they had given her a shot of morphine, and something else to keep her from throwing up again. So on top of a spinal headache, they said she has a really bad infection. and then on tuesday she has to see a neurologist.

Wednesday - Arguing with TJ's mom about whether I should be paid for extra days I babysit or not. Apparently it's unthinkable, and I offended them deeply just by asking.

Thursday (today) - Getting yelled at by Junior's mom about the same issue.

I guess I have to suck it up. Until I get a better visa there's not much I can do. I know that, they know that. It's a sacrifice I must do I guess, and it won't be forever *prays*

Today it's until 11:30, same tomorrow I guess. I better get my 2 days off next week man. Not that I'd be able to do much if I dont. SIGH.

Hopefully Ill have something nice to blog about soon! *fingers crossed*

eternity and other things

2007-05-08T00:02:38Z

Marianne

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ok, another entry today, god hels us all :P

say your spouse dies and you re marry or something along those lines. no one likes cheating, no one would want to be cheated on etc etc so bottom line is, we dont want to share our partners with anyone.

now after you re marry, die, and you go to heaven.... how would that work. who would you spend the rest of eternity with? would that prevent you from falling in love again?

Kids rolls eyes

2007-05-07T21:16:29Z

Marianne

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So my dad used to live with this woman, Simone. They got together shortly after my parents split up (my mom claims it was before :P ) and were together until about two years ago, or a lil over that, when she kicked me out being gay lol Which is a completely unecessary tidbit of background history for my lil story. Simone is jewish, and so is most of her family. Reading lots of comments here about jesus and how Jewish people dont believe in him like the christians do (im so sorry if im wording it all wrong, i dont mean to offend anyone) reminded me of this short conversation I had with simone when i was 9 or so. It was around christmas time.

Simone - blah blah blah...so we dont believe in Jesus.
Me - ooohhh I get it. you dont believe in Jesus.... but you know he exists right?
Simone - ....... no. We dont believe in Jesus.
Me - ....ok. but you know he exists right?
Simone - No we dodnt believe in him
Me - but you know he exists right?

I have no idea how long that went on for, but thats pretty much what happened. Of course I completely understand it now, and I have for years, but, its funny and completely weird to me, to know that as a kid I honestly could NOT understand it at all. I had been raised to believe in Jesus, and I just could not understand how Simone didnt. I never meant to offend her or anything, nor was I ever raised to. My family always taught me that we HAVE to first and foremost respect everyone, regardless of their beliefs, life choices, appearance, social status etc etc... even though that was obviously, for everyone, easier said than done.

Anyways... this started out as a funny story from my life... but now... not really... now I'm wondering if that's how close minded people feel. If they just cannot see beyond their own beliefs. Is that what it is? If so - I grew out of it... will they? How come some do and some dont? :S

Now my brain is FULL of thougths. AGAIN.

lol

sunday bloody sunday... part 3

2007-05-07T17:25:37Z

Marianne

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Her mom went out again to smoke, I just stayed in with her, holding her hand. Then we started talking, and I broke down in tears. Seriously, she's in bed looking like sh*t, but she's the one trying to cheer me up and talking about random things and saying that she was ok now and she'd get better so I'd feel better. I'm hopeless really lol She asked me not to leave unless the doctor said so, but then to come back. 2 hours later the doctor came back with the results. It wasnt meningitis. YAY (and thank you, God!). They didnt say what it was either though, cos I guess they didnt know , they just said it was some sort of infection and sent her home with some t3's and a note to miss work. The wonderful world of medicine eh :P

I, of course, get called in to babysit today and tomorrow. Which are usually my days off; but nope, the week I truly need them is the week I cant get em. 11 hours a day, three days a week, sick or not, I'm here. Not a very good pay either. but I'm here. I dont like complaining, cos I dont want it to get taken away from me because I wasnt grateful enough or whatever. Believe me. most of the times I am. But after being super sick with a cold and still having to work (I guess they dont care if the kids will catch it), being worried sick all sunday and not being able to do anything to help brit today or tomorrow (shes pretty much bed ridden and with a hell of a sore back, not being able to move a whole lot), the fact I still have this freaking annoying cold... Im finding it just a bit hard to be in a good mood.

</rant>

ps. 8 hours to go....
ps2. congratulations if you made it this far :)
ps3. hee its our anniversary this month

SodaHead - Marianne's Blog

Moving out!

catch and release

Ativan I love you

Someone make me stop listening to..

chocolate i want you

Shared polls

Monday bloody Tuesday bloody Wednesday bloody Thursday.....

eternity and other things

Kids *rolls eyes*

sunday bloody sunday... part 3

Kids rolls eyes