'Tell Him the Truth.'
assuming I would be saying this to my 7 year old self.
I'd just tell my dad my mom was cheating on him.
Instead I lied for my mom.
She kept cheating on him, and when he found out about it she was already trying to divorce him, take his children away, and he had been obviously deeply depressed for at least 6 months.
My father killed himself 12/25/04.
I'd do anything to stop that.. even magically go through time and tell myself my mom is a crazy bitch.
Hey, your father loved you.He would not have wanted you to be like this, at the time YOU had to do make a choise AT THAT TIME IT WAS THE RIGHT CHOISE, move on your father would not have been mad with you, he loved you and would not have wanted you to be like this.
I not being any way ..I'm just saying I'd wish I could stop my dad from feeling like my mom leaving him was worth taking his life. but I understand when someone is that depressed their thought process is very unstable and irrational. I know my father loved me and still would have loved me if I told him what my mom was doing. my mom was the one who made me keep her secrets and stay at strange guys homes for hours waiting for her to be finished so we could go home. If only my father knew.. I'm sure life would have been so different. I can't help but feel like that one choice I made.. that one very big lie. ..it ruined my life's happiness and it robbed my father of his life.
I'll always feel this way. no amount of medication, counseling, or ..'pep talks'; will make me feel any different. but I'm not depressed or anything.. his death is just what I have to deal with.
it's been almost 8 years this christmas..everyday since I found out he was dead, I think about him. everyday. I miss him a lot. But I realize I can't change anything about it.
I suppose we all experience various things in life, whether it is our "path", something to have to through for whatever reasons. One thing for sure, I think no life is free from some sort of downside.
No, it's not very pleasant sometimes. I never liked the overly-zealous types who just say "Stay positive" or if you "think positively, everything will be fine", because the bottom line is, no matter what, things do happen - in everyone's lives, it seems.
For instance, you being just an innocent child thrown into a negative situation, unfortunately that you did not deserve. I don't know if this is due to "past life Karma" or what. They say our "soul" (without us being aware of in any lifetime), "chooses experiences to go through" at birth, in order to move on to "another level". I know that is a tough thing to swallow.. but seems there may be something to it.
For instance, why is it that someone will have cancer or one might die in a minor accident while another will live through a deadly car accident and repeated incidents and continue to live? Or a person who is really awful will seemingly have so much otherwise? Why do some who are drug addicts have perfectly normal children they cannot take care of, yet a healthy couple who can afford to will not conceive or has a still-born child?.. I don't know, but I've pondered this, it just seems there is a "balance" or Karmic debt everyone will experience in some way. You have a long life ahead of you it seems it and you will likely not experience anything equal to what you already have.
Sorry for being long-winded.. just hoping to comfort you. : )
i would tell my younger self, to not hang out with those losers they will ruin your life
but then again those losers helped me find the job i've been working at
so i'll tell my younger self to not smoke cigs
don't try to fix the garage door. you'll break your hand and then only be able to type with one hand and won't be able to press the shift key when you're writing and you'll have to write improperly.... i can't even do a frowny face so,
;9
-add the shift key to that face
That darn Ryan Ott... we all have had a few of them in our lives. Hope you won't have any more!
When I was in kindergarten, I liked a first grader. I recall he walked across the street to where I was on my bike (four wheeler) and punched my teddy bear in the nose. That was it -- it was over for me. His name was ... uh.. Gary Pauf or something.. not to smear people's names around.. but I never forgot that.
try your hardest in algebra the first time, that way you dont have to barely pass the second time (: also, if you start cutting, you will pay later in life
You weren't there. You're just a kid. And you don't know how evil this person was. So don't judge me and call me rude. Unless you want me to start judging you by what you post on here.
assuming I would be saying this to my 7 year old self.
I'd just tell my dad my mom was cheating on him.
Instead I lied for my mom.
She kept cheating on him, and when he found out about it she was already trying to divorce him, take his children away, and he had been obviously deeply depressed for at least 6 months.
My father killed himself 12/25/04.
I'd do anything to stop that.. even magically go through time and tell myself my mom is a crazy bitch.
but I understand when someone is that depressed their thought process is very unstable and irrational.
I know my father loved me and still would have loved me if I told him what my mom was doing.
my mom was the one who made me keep her secrets and stay at strange guys homes for hours waiting for her to be finished so we could go home.
If only my father knew.. I'm sure life would have been so different.
I can't help but feel like that one choice I made.. that one very big lie. ..it ruined my life's happiness and it robbed my father of his life.
I'll always feel this way. no amount of medication, counseling, or ..'pep talks'; will make me feel any different.
but I'm not depressed or anything.. his death is just what I have to deal with.
it's been almost 8 years this christmas..everyday since I found out he was dead, I think about him. everyday. I miss him a lot. But I realize I can't change anything about it.
I suppose we all experience various things in life, whether it is our "path", something to have to through for whatever reasons. One thing for sure, I think no life is free from some sort of downside.
I don't believe that anymore ..I realize life just sucks.
For instance, you being just an innocent child thrown into a negative situation, unfortunately that you did not deserve. I don't know if this is due to "past life Karma" or what. They say our "soul" (without us being aware of in any lifetime), "chooses experiences to go through" at birth, in order to move on to "another level". I know that is a tough thing to swallow.. but seems there may be something to it.
For instance, why is it that someone will have cancer or one might die in a minor accident while another will live through a deadly car accident and repeated incidents and continue to live? Or a person who is really awful will seemingly have so much otherwise? Why do some who are drug addicts have perfectly normal children they cannot take care of, yet a healthy couple who can afford to will not conceive or has a still-born child?.. I don't know, but I've pondered this, it just seems there is a "balance" or Karmic debt everyone will experience in some way. You have a long life ahead of you it seems it and you will likely not experience anything equal to what you already have.
Sorry for being long-winded.. just hoping to comfort you. : )
but then again those losers helped me find the job i've been working at
so i'll tell my younger self to not smoke cigs
;9
-add the shift key to that face
i would tell myself to stay the fck away from ryan ott and enjoy 8th grade year.
When I was in kindergarten, I liked a first grader. I recall he walked across the street to where I was on my bike (four wheeler) and punched my teddy bear in the nose. That was it -- it was over for me. His name was ... uh.. Gary Pauf or something.. not to smear people's names around.. but I never forgot that.
to not fight my strong, precognitive intuition... the day I got in my car to go to work and ended up crashed into on the freeway by another driver.
also, if you start cutting, you will pay later in life