Great question. Let me think about it. I know I've built a number of them.
I guess -- the very worst one was in allowing myself to become dependent on a legalized downer drug that was given me full dosage by Kaiser Permanente psychiatrists for absolutely no reason at all. I kept being afraid to go off of it for fear of withdrawals (they said I would have a seizure) so I lived in a klonopin-laced zombie hell for 8 1/2 years until I finally kicked the damned drug cold turkey. It's now been 8 years since I've taken any klonopin (clonazepam.)
The personal prison I'll built was in the dependency on this substance, and it was based on an unrealistic fear of withdrawal that was prompted by threats from capitalistic doctors of no moral stature who only wanted to keep me addicted to that drug. I kicked it on 5/10/04 with no withdrawal symptoms whatsoever, thus freeing myself from 8 1/2 years of personal imprisonment, based on fear.
That was quite candid by the way, so I hope it provides a clear answer. The reason, by the way, that they administered the substance in the first place was because my wife had left me and I was having difficulty concentrating. They then proceeded to keep me on it for 8 1/2 years. They scared me, but in my naivete I did not know I had a choice.
Now I do, and am happier for it. Thank you for letting me share.
Thanks, Christy. I actually was a little hesitant to share that, considering how personal it is. But the question was a very interesting one, and worth reflection. And that's what came up for me.
I can certainly see why you'd be hesitant, especially with some of the stuff I read here! Thanks again for sharing that--I'm sure there are many others who are or have been in similar situations, and while yours is a story of a struggle...it's also a story of hope and overcoming that struggle.
I'll share more about it if you if you have any questions -- but maybe on PM so we don't get too off the track of the question, plus i'd rather not post the info publicly But this is a theme in all my current work as a composer-playwright and I am also happy to discuss it with interested people.
I guess -- the very worst one was in allowing myself to become dependent on a legalized downer drug that was given me full dosage by Kaiser Permanente psychiatrists for absolutely no reason at all. I kept being afraid to go off of it for fear of withdrawals (they said I would have a seizure) so I lived in a klonopin-laced zombie hell for 8 1/2 years until I finally kicked the damned drug cold turkey. It's now been 8 years since I've taken any klonopin (clonazepam.)
The personal prison I'll built was in the dependency on this substance, and it was based on an unrealistic fear of withdrawal that was prompted by threats from capitalistic doctors of no moral stature who only wanted to keep me addicted to that drug. I kicked it on 5/10/04 with no withdrawal symptoms whatsoever, thus freeing myself from 8 1/2 years of personal imprisonment, based on fear.
That was quite candid by the way, so I hope it provides a clear answer. The reason, by the way, that they administered the substance in the first place was because my wife had left me and I was having difficulty concentrating. They then proceeded to keep me on it for 8 1/2 years. They scared me, but in my naivete I did not know I had a choice.
Now I do, and am happier for it. Thank you for letting me share.