Were you ever close to dying?

No, I did not have a near death experience! I had a death experience. I saw things in the OR that I could NOT have seen if I was not watching. I saw a cardiologist rush in after scrubbing into the OR, and I was able to describe her scrubs (they were yellow with dogs on them) and her hair and stuff. I was able to repeat what she had said, and done. She was not in the room for the surgery, and I was still under anesthesia when I came back to life, and she left. I had no way of seeing her...it even changed the way the surgeon and three of his nurses look at life and death! (maybe THAT was the reason!) I was not floating, but like standing in the room, looking at myself, and realizing I am either dead, or out of my body. I saw the flatline on the monitor, and the panic in the room, and realized I was dead. All I could think of was how hard it was going to be on my mother. The "person" that came for me was not anyone I have ever known, and she said nothing to me for what seemed an eternity. I looked at myself again, and told her, "this will break my mother's heart, and her faith, but I'm ready." I was like walking away from myself, and she was ahead of me, and she stopped, but didn't turn around for what seemed like forever, but when she did, she told me ,"No. You can not come here. You are not ready. Your purpose has not been realized." With that, she hit me dead in the chest with just one palm, so effortlessly, but that blow threw me back and I kinda fell back into my body, and it hurt. It was like being thrown into a pool filled with needles, broken glass, and ice slush water.

I make every day meaningful. I remember to treat each person as though it may be the last time I ever see them. I tell those that I care about that I love them often; i want kind and loving words to be the last words they hear from me, should the lady ever come back for me!