"we will really miss you," Laken said. " I can't believe you're leaving!!!!??? Why didn't you tell us before?" she said, looking exasperated.
" Because," I felt like crap, and I couldn't believe I told her this stuff. I mean really, but she knew something was up, and we promised each other, that we wouldn't keep anything away from each other. And, she was really mad at me when I wouldn't tell her, well, then I figured it wouldn't matter. I was about to leave, so why not?"
"I didn't want to burden you, with trying to carry around all the time." I said, trying to look innocent, I was tearing up too, normally the crying thing worked on her. Okay, I know what your thinking, "why make her feel sorry for you?" well, the reason why is because, most the time that was the only way to make sure she would keep her big mouth shut.This was the biggest secret I had, so I needed to give it all I had, and in the process, trying not to barf .
I had been putting up with this for a very long time. I don't really feel all that emotional anyway. My family is actually suprised I haven't start cutting and everything, with my mom abusing me and all. sure, I was md, but I got over it.
" Just promise me you won't tell ayone,"I breathed chocking sobs.
"sure, thing" she replied. Then she gave me this look that made me want to cry, puke, and slap her all at the same time. I hate it when people feel sorry for me.
"oh, and one more thing?' i asked
"sure"
"never ever, look at me like that again" and the hurt look on her face
hit me with a pang of regret.God, why did I have to say that?


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4 u ppl reading this, fyi NOT A REAL STORY!!!!!!!!!!! well, it is but, not from my point of view, from a friends.