Thoughts on Vision Loss ...
Thoughts on my Vision Loss
With the NEW way I 'see' .. well .. it came as a SHOCK -- a shock that I didn't think would happen so fast, so soon. I also found out that my OTHER Eye needs the same surgery (it was only slightly stronger than the one that I already have the vision loss in) -- a surgery that will occur soon too.
I've started taking my time. I am working on making sure my PERSONAL life is in order -- in all ways (including Legally). I know that these Surgeries are NOT going to be a Permanent Fix .. it is just slowing down the steady decline in my vision and I've got a good idea of when I'll need even more surgery in the coming years, what it will involve, what to look for, and how I'll need to be on top of the symptoms and keep in contact with my medical providers about these symptoms too. (YES, eventually, I'll have permanent blindness .. but thankfully, that is NOT This season right now).
I can say this ..
What am I going to miss as my sight gets worse in time?
I KNOW That I'll miss the ability to read the printed word .. to READ great novels and to enjoy the feel of a book (paperback or hardcover in my hands). I'll miss going to the Encyclopedic Dictionary of my Mother's to look up random words of the day .. I'll miss seeing the Sunrises and Sunsets .. I'll miss seeing the beauty of the LINES .. the shapes .. of things around me (of course I can feel them .. but I won't be able to see them with my eyes). I'll miss being able to work with my Cameras .. enjoy the independent TRAVEL .. the Day Trips .. walking around with the Visions of Nature's Best seen unfolding around me. I'll miss the petals of the flowers .. the veins in a leaf. I'll miss seeing the beauty of CREATING .. the brushstrokes .. the mixing of paints. I'll miss the DRIVING around .. the Freedom of my Motorcycle and just packing up my SUV to take to the road.
What am I doing now?
I've made lifestyle changes .. I take it easier overall -- I am taking things slower .. I relax and close my eyes more. Light is very painful indeed (in the eye that already has the surgery) -- so I do wear heavy glasses and also I wear Wrap-Around Light Shields (polarized lenses) to help tamp down on the light entering my eyes.
Some things are easier than others to re-learn .. I have pretty much updated appliances in the home over the past couple of years (so yes, some do "Talk" and I can easily continue to work with them at this point in time, and in the future too). Some appliances I'll have to change .. and that will happen over time as I can afford to replace them. Some chores will be as always, some will require that I have some help (so I don't hurt myself when I do them). Some will require that I take some classes to learn how to manage them withOUT sight .. and that will be also done over time too.
I have increased the size of the print and refreshed my touch-typing skills on the computer. I'm RE-Learning Dictation (this time to my computer instead of a secretary (Hey, we didn't have computers when I started out in my careers)). I've started changing devices to upgrade to voice control (which is working out well since Technology has gotten much better at this).
I've seen so much, experienced what I have so far in life. I HAVE the memories of what I've done and lived through too. It is my LIFE .. my mind, and although the eyes will not always 'see' .. I can HEAR .. I can THINK .. I can LIVE as best I can and as INDEPENDENTLY as possible as I can too.