Is it bad if I am constantly looking for an escape from reality?
livingstorywriter101
2012/06/12 04:37:41
I'm constantly looking for an escape from my reality. It's not that it's necessarily a bad reality. It's quite the contrary to be honest, there's nothing that I feel like I should legitimately be able to complain about. Yet I'm still not really satisfied or happy with it. So I fill my time with watching anime and movies, reading, playing video games, writing, drawing... doing anything that can suck me into a different reality. It depresses me when whatever I'm doing is over. And all of this worries me.
I want to work in voice acting industry but it just sort of hit me... a big factor of that, outside of the enjoyment I get from acting, is the idea of having a part of being in fiction and, for some reason... that reasoning doesn't exactly feel right to me.
I have friends... I love hanging out with them but whenever they aren't around I feel empty and end up feeling the need to go to my escapes. I don't like being so dependent on things... I can't even just sit down to relax with feeling empty. I hide it well enough... but I feel like I should enjoy life more... rather than wishing I could actually be able to be a part of a fictional thing.
I haven't told anyone about these feelings... I don't want to worry my parents (I'm 17, almost 18) and friends... I'd rather deal with it on my own than worry anyone I care so deeply about.
So... is this normal or bad of me to feel this way?
I want to work in voice acting industry but it just sort of hit me... a big factor of that, outside of the enjoyment I get from acting, is the idea of having a part of being in fiction and, for some reason... that reasoning doesn't exactly feel right to me.
I have friends... I love hanging out with them but whenever they aren't around I feel empty and end up feeling the need to go to my escapes. I don't like being so dependent on things... I can't even just sit down to relax with feeling empty. I hide it well enough... but I feel like I should enjoy life more... rather than wishing I could actually be able to be a part of a fictional thing.
I haven't told anyone about these feelings... I don't want to worry my parents (I'm 17, almost 18) and friends... I'd rather deal with it on my own than worry anyone I care so deeply about.
So... is this normal or bad of me to feel this way?
If this is anything like what you're talking about, I don't think it is abnormal or at all unhealthy, because it kind provide a positive outlet for expression that one cannot fully focus on if one is overly involved in the mundane, practical world.
I use marijuana to escape sometimes.