Because when I lost my family members I could go for 5 months without breaking down, when miracles happens that I could see, and love that other people do for me, and says to me.
I did exactly the same thing, never broke down for over a year. Loved my mother more than I loved myself. But I also know there is no gods ever. Man has created more than 4700 gods over the history of time. None have ever been proven to exist. My friends, family and even strangers do loving acts for me daily. Nothing what so ever to do with gods.
Have you watched a Case for Christ by Josh McDowell. If you havent its a very well done documentary of a professional reporter who was athiest for years until he went into deep research and couldn't prove that God wasn't real
the things that happen in my life are my proof , like the fact that Meth almost killed me, and untill i turned my life and heart over to God . then and only then could i stay clean ! ! !
Asking that question is like asking if you aren't insane. Trial studies dating back to the mid 1900's show that a person cannot find out if they are insane by any kind of evaluation in a controlled environment, such as being studied by doctors in a room. They have found the way to answer the question is to do it backwards. You take a "test" to find out if you ARE insane and if you "fail" persay, then you are not clinically insane. HENCE, you must seek to fiiind God with all your heart and mind, unrelentlessly. If you ask yourself such a pessimistic question as this one along the way, you will not find the light.
Oww, that made my head hurt. You are aware the "definition" of insane/insanity has changed quite a bit in the past century? Insanity has not been considered a medical term but rather a legal term. That aside, and really not pertinent to your post, let's get to the "do it backwards" as you suggest. This methodology would not meet muster in today's society, it would prove nothing ! My reply to your post was sort of a "do it backwards" It just does not work. Maybe that is why you assumed my post was meant to be pessimistic. As to your comment "hence, you must seek to find God with all your heart and mind, unrelentellesly". The Oxford dictionary states,unrelentlessly is a solecism for either unrelentingly or relentlessly. Ironically, this nonword literally suggests just the opposite of the intended meaning. All that said, your response was interesting and thought provoking. By the way, I'm still on my spiritual journey. It is an ongoing pilgrimage I look forward to daily.
Or read the bible before you prayed?
I recommend Romans 8. That chapter is generally inspiring.
HENCE, you must seek to fiiind God with all your heart and mind, unrelentlessly. If you ask yourself such a pessimistic question as this one along the way, you will not find the light.