2011
Monkey Luver
2011/01/01 06:58:08
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So its already 2011 in most places...Where I live I have less then two hours to go but I have had alot on my mind tonight....
So a new year to most people means new goals.. Well I have three maybe four if you can't one has a goal.
1.Stop drinking soda/pop
2.Stop eating chips
3.Start praying to God every single night
4.Find my birth mom my half brother and my birth dad (I don't know if you count this one has a goal but still)
The more I think about 2011 the more I see that my life change in a really big way and I am scared. I am not really a fan of change and yea I believe change can be good for some things but others not really. I have had changes in my life happen that at the time weren't good but changed to be good near the end of the road. Maybe its normal to be scared for the changes.
What 2011 has to offer me is I graduate from high school this year and go off to college. I get a car and a job that is volunteer work. I get rent a place to live so I don't have to live with my parents. I get to work on starting my career has been a teacher. I get to met my mother the women who gave birth to me and hopefully the son she had a year before she had me and hopefully I get to met my father that helped my mom to make me. My life is changing and I don't want to screw it up. I don't want to disappoint my family cause its already happened twice. I thought that once I finished college I would move to Nebraska where I grew up in Nebraska and leave Nevada but now I don't think I want to leave this place. I love my church a lot and I think thats the only reason why I might not want to leave Nevada. I don't know all I know is I am scared and I am not ready for 2011.
In 2010 I had a really good friend. Last year at this time he stayed up til 3 in the morning his time talking to me until it was midnight where I live. That was the first time we talked in a long time but I am glad we did. Later on in the year our friendship lead to boyfriend girlfriend and yes we had lots and lots of arguments but he always knew what to say and how to make me happy! :) He knew/knows everything there is to know about me and half of it my parents don't know. We broke up I think early November cause he wanted to pursue something with someone else. They are still together and why yes I am happy for him. In December on my birthday I decide that we should take a break from talking to each other. We did. Starting talking the Monday before Christmas then it stopped then we talked Christmas Eve to the day after Christmas and now we barely talk which sucks a lot. I use to tell him everything but now I feel like I can't tell him everything. I want to be able to tell him everything. I miss him I miss what we had. And on Christmas day I was going to tell him that I love him but that all changed and I didn't tell him.
Any who HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)
So a new year to most people means new goals.. Well I have three maybe four if you can't one has a goal.
1.Stop drinking soda/pop
2.Stop eating chips
3.Start praying to God every single night
4.Find my birth mom my half brother and my birth dad (I don't know if you count this one has a goal but still)
The more I think about 2011 the more I see that my life change in a really big way and I am scared. I am not really a fan of change and yea I believe change can be good for some things but others not really. I have had changes in my life happen that at the time weren't good but changed to be good near the end of the road. Maybe its normal to be scared for the changes.
What 2011 has to offer me is I graduate from high school this year and go off to college. I get a car and a job that is volunteer work. I get rent a place to live so I don't have to live with my parents. I get to work on starting my career has been a teacher. I get to met my mother the women who gave birth to me and hopefully the son she had a year before she had me and hopefully I get to met my father that helped my mom to make me. My life is changing and I don't want to screw it up. I don't want to disappoint my family cause its already happened twice. I thought that once I finished college I would move to Nebraska where I grew up in Nebraska and leave Nevada but now I don't think I want to leave this place. I love my church a lot and I think thats the only reason why I might not want to leave Nevada. I don't know all I know is I am scared and I am not ready for 2011.
In 2010 I had a really good friend. Last year at this time he stayed up til 3 in the morning his time talking to me until it was midnight where I live. That was the first time we talked in a long time but I am glad we did. Later on in the year our friendship lead to boyfriend girlfriend and yes we had lots and lots of arguments but he always knew what to say and how to make me happy! :) He knew/knows everything there is to know about me and half of it my parents don't know. We broke up I think early November cause he wanted to pursue something with someone else. They are still together and why yes I am happy for him. In December on my birthday I decide that we should take a break from talking to each other. We did. Starting talking the Monday before Christmas then it stopped then we talked Christmas Eve to the day after Christmas and now we barely talk which sucks a lot. I use to tell him everything but now I feel like I can't tell him everything. I want to be able to tell him everything. I miss him I miss what we had. And on Christmas day I was going to tell him that I love him but that all changed and I didn't tell him.
Any who HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)
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