Wish.

So i am sitting here,half asleep-half awake,half dead-half alive,thinking like I always do.
I dont get many days like these.Days in which the sky is crying,bleeding blood,matching my mood perfectly.
What am I saying..there are no days that I get to watch the sky.Moving fast being overwhelmed from the paranoia in my life,I tend to forget that the prettiest things hide in the most simple ones.
There are no many things that I remember from my childhood.Most of them aren't even things for a public display.But the good ones,those i do recall the most,are always memories of me wondering why.
'Why is the sea so blue?'..I wonder.Why when it's stormy it has the color of a black blue but when it's calm its blue seems so happy?I stay by the sea looking at it for hours.Nothing calms me more.I think that the sea has feelings too and like a spoiled child makes hell break loose when it is angry.
I wonder why the rain that falls from the sky doesnt hurt me at all when it touches me but when it hits the roofs of the houses it makes an awful sound.Why is the sky so sad?It feels like millions of people are crying.And i cant join them.
I have shed all the tears of my life.But this gentle tapping on my windows calls out to me.I wish I could get lost in the sound of your crying.
Your tears..your tears are what matters the most.Tears falling from those innocent beautiful eyes,worse than any kind of storm.Worse than any kind of the worst memory I ever had.Worse than all of my sins and i have many.Guess that will be my sin too.
I wish I could lose my sanity while I have you in my arms so you could bring me back.
I wish I could hold off all your tears even if I had to relive my worse nightmares over and over again for the rest of my life.
I wish I could be there so you could call me your protector,your guardian angel,your..soul.
I wish I could wish knowing all my wish will become true.
I wish I knew if we are under the same sky,thinking the same thing..