I am a born American citizen. I am also a Japanese citizen in good standing, since I was 11 y.o., I have a soshōdairinin in Kamakura, Kanagawa, who makes sure my taxes are paid every year and all the other t's are crossed and i's dotted. I also was hire on by an outfit to work summers as a guide in the Rockies when I was 16 y.o. and 17 y.o.. so I am have "Landed Immigrant" status in Canada and one of their rare handgun licenses. My Canadian status is still valid because I'm still held in primary ready reserve in the US Army and active reserve in 陸上自衛隊 Rikujō Jieitai, the Japan Ground Self-Defense Forces, (whatever you do, don't say army).
it actually is true in a way cuz if ever1 is special, it defeats the meaning of it, if ever1 is special, then no1 is anymore. the only way every1 can b special is in an individual kind of matter i think. take me for example, im special, i am, BUT to my mom cuz her 1st kid and all, however put me with other random ppl we dont know and im not special anymore, im the same as them, a normal human being.
I saw your post about that. I'm so sorry. It is my belief that you have to make your own meaning out of life and that one of the best routes to happiness is to be of help to others. That is a very good sort of purpose. I wish you all the best. Keep putting one foot in front of the other and see where it takes you.
I'm sorry you're so sad. I saw your message on your profile "I'm free, anybody want me?" Well that's a start. It sounds as though you're open to a new relationship. Have you made any effort to meet someone new? You must have some friends who might know someone that might be right for you. You are obviously a smart guy since you have both a B.S and M.S. So get out there and meet someone! You need to break your routine and I know that it's hard to do because I get in a rut very often myself. I think if you just make a start, you'll know what to do from there. I hope you're ok and that you'll be happier soon.