Are you a tortured soul at times?

most times.

W/O going into details ... YES ; i'm your basic tortured artist .

I suspect that to one degree or not, all of us are from time to time. Some of us just hide it better than others.

at times

Supa

Very much so.!

Everyone does from time to time even if they won't admit it.

I'm an actor and writer, so it just comes with the territory.

I pay little or no attention to what goes on in my mind it is for the most part a load of self destructive crap have better things to pay attention to.

If you don't feel that way, then there's something important missing.

a lot lately

Only here lately a somewhat broken hearted soul at times. . . luckily I try to make those times few.

I am sorry to hear you are broken hearted

Thank-you for your concern. . . things just do not always turn out as you wish and hope they will. I am pretty sure that is one good reason to have faith and belief that there is something more than life here and now. Otherwise it would really be a sad loss in many cases and ways ya know? I do not let depression keep me down. . only occasionally

Well, you have always been kind to me and I wish you were happier. I know you must be having a hard time. If you need a ear I will listen

You're very kind and I appreciate your offer of listening. We just lost one of our beloved pets a couple wks back and finished decorating his grave with plants an hr ago so not so happy right now. He was our youngest dog. . only 5 and he went so suddenly it is still just a shock. Must have had a bad heart all along I guess. Then ofcourse it has been a rough couple of years and I had so hoped and thought this year was going to be the start of normalcy and things getting better but it turns out to be worse. Oh well, life throws us curve balls from time to time. Just have to regroup and think of plan #2 or #3. . . carry on. It could always be worse so I am not complaining. It will be alright.

I never took you as complaining and I understand completely on losing the pet. I lost my one cat almost a year ago and still mourn her loss. This year will turnout better. It will just not seem that way right away. Have a plan #4, #5 just in case

Ok, can do. My mother and sister will be at the beach this Aug and that will be great. I am looking forward to then. My mother has not been to a beach since being a teenager and she is 76 now. Good times are just around the corner! Hope you are enjoying your summer!

I am as I hope you are