SodaHead - Indigo's Blog

I'm back :)

2009-10-24T13:39:51Z

+1 raves

I'm feeling so much better cause my two best friends forever are out of the hospital.. And I found all of my works... so im back...

Goodbye For Now

2009-10-14T21:09:02Z

Indigo

+6 raves

Hi, Ive been feeling really depressed lately, and I cant talk to anyone about it because i feel they are going to judge me because of it. My art,my writings,and even my closest friends can't even make me feel better.. everything that i did is gone, everyone basically that i love is gone.. so why should i exist? so what im trying to say is goodbye. for now.

Untitled

2009-07-02T16:06:08Z

Indigo

+1 raves

A fresh beat of air, a beautiful tune, a sunset that led to a moon, just made for me and you. With that kiss, we created bliss, everything envied us: the stars above, the ones we loved, and the world, the judgemental malicious world. We vowed never to let anything come between us.... not the curse of the beasts or the howling of the wrecthed winds.. nor the knocking of death... But the world got what it wanted... ''Deep in Earth my love is lying And I must weep alone.'' Poe put it correctly. Our love, our bittersweet love, pumping with the pure essence of loyalty,friendship, and trust. With every fiber of our beings giving everything we had, and everything we knew to each other All the sweat and tears all the fears of our years all the pain and passion that we had made our love special, superhuman in fact. Able to withstand death, able to withstand the storms of life beating and beating you. But this world marooned us on a island and took our love, it took our hearts and left us bleeding on the side. I buried you with our lost love, now I weep alone.

Goodbye Forever

2009-07-01T18:12:31Z

Indigo

+2 raves

Falling fast, breaking the dawn, I look into his eyes and he makes a sound ''Goodbye Forever''. I take his hand, my tears dry as sand falling like a leaky faucet. This is what i wanted this is what i needed ''Goodbye Forever.'' I whispered coming close to his lips then hitting the ground.

Beautiful

2009-07-01T17:58:56Z

Indigo

+1 raves

Beautiful? What is it? I'll tell you... A figment of my imagination so that i can hide beaneth it like a mask to cover my flaws. A word to not reveal the hate i feel inside. A layer that fends off anyone around me. Will i ever be beautiful? Probably not. Will i ever step out of my place to daze someone? Never. I couldn't even do that on a good day. Beautiful? What does it mean?? Am i supposed to be.

Please keep me in your prayers or whatever

2009-05-29T17:13:14Z

Indigo

+1 raves

My mother, my sister and i have just recently been in an car crash my mother was sent to the hospital and i have a few scrapes and bruises. my sis is fine I just want your support in helping us recover from this event and it happened only a couple of feet from my school. anything is appreciated and i would like to say thanks in advance.

Another Excerpt (From my book)

2009-01-10T22:33:10Z

Indigo

+3 raves

I hobbled through the cafeteria doors. When I got through I saw Scarry wave to me and the say ''come here''. But I focused on Tamwyn's perfect face. I waved back ,then started for Tamwyn's table. I glanced over to see his eyes fading into a deep black. My eyes shifting into a pool turquoise as I saw Tamwyn's head pop upas I came towards him. his eyes a sea foam green. A smile graced across his face but then quickly went away. When I made it to his table , I stood frozen in my tracks. ''' Um... Thanks for yesterday.'' I stammered. '' No problem...'' he replied. The silence was awkward and I of course, looked like an idiot. It felt likw something was me closer but at the same time pulling me far away from him. Tamwyn, the one who made me feel , and the one that didn't. The one I lived to see everyday, and the one my heart beated for.

Tell me what you think. okay?

2008-12-13T16:53:58Z

Indigo

+6 raves

This is from my book ''Tamwyn! Why are you walking away? I..... I thought you.'' ''What loved you? That could never...''he interupted sharply. My blue-violet eyes fighting the tears that stung me. I stoped in front in him. His eyes a deep blue-grey. ''How can you say that?''I screeched.''I liked you...i even love you. I even saved your life.'' ''Oh by pulling me from the path of a speeding train? I caught you when you were dropping from your bedroom window. I told you on that day to not talk to me. Never to pursue me, but like a stuborn child you disobey. This is how you repay me?'' he shot back. My eyes turning into a faint yellow-blue. Then suddenly he said something to my surprise. ''But yet I am drawn to you. For everything you are putting me through. Even here with you ,when the sun is setting is a sin. But..... your gaze, makes my cold heart ,warm up. I can't breathe when I'm around you. You make things so difficult for me. I am not supposed to want you but I do. Everything curves to me.'' My eyes a deep blue, awed by his words and excited because he felt the same as I did. His rough concreate face ,melting into pure perfection. I loved him too. ''You tortue me... you torment me..... you kill me.''he spoke as he came closer towards me. ''Ummm..'' i muttered. He went towards the lake and stared out into the sunset.

Unwanted

2008-08-11T18:11:50Z

Indigo

+10 raves

Tears fallling from my face and i can't find a trace of happiness.. my soul sinks deeper and deeper into the ever enlarging abyss... like an fallen angel....sinking and sinking... Time making me a captive of his eclipse, me slowly drowning in an pool of confusing waters.... drifting and drifting rapidly into eternity... the fragrance of simplicity itching at my nose... slowly submerging into trembling waters.... wading and wading..... trying to extend my hand towards the ever disappearing spirits.... with disgust they throw my hands away and say ''u are unwanted in this place... ....... leave or suffer the penalty of death''. I try to make amends for something i don't know of. then,...time knocking at my mind.. and me being stiffed by him i unleash a shriek which turn into words.. ''...........i am .unwanted.''

Slit (Deadictcated 2 my friend Misty.) no copy

2008-07-24T21:28:54Z

Indigo

+3 raves

Slowly, dancing, across, my, wrist ....... The knife glistening in the light. Dad screams''Get that thing outta my sight!'' I try to heed his word with all of my might.. But i remember i can never win this fight..... Ditto. How it was... Slowly, dancing, across, My, wrist.. sl-wait I wait.. I pause.. I think... ........ Slit.... I am released