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The End

2009-11-16T06:30:16Z

+10 raves

driven by feelings
I did not know
so how could they be my own

desperately I wanted
to find myself again
however long that would take

alone
always alone
but I did not despair
yet

and then it all came back to me
my life forsaken
and worse I did not care

how would I continue
how would I find a new life
when nothing mattered
nothing at all

then the light shone again
filling my heart with a warmth forgotten
when I still used to smile

and I realized
that sometimes an ending
can lead to a new beginning

September's Shadow

2009-11-14T00:12:42Z

Tommy Trend

+12 raves

I was alone
but you said you were with me
always with me
always with you

I was content
I thought I knew the truth
nothing could get between us
but then I knew

I fell
and I was alone again
you were nowhere
I had lost my best friend

And soon came September
and all the changes it would bring
now it was fall
I wished I was back in spring

What was there left to do
I could not go forward
I could not go back
twelve years later
I am still living in the past

If I could not forgive myself
how could I forgive you
this long
it has taken this long
and still I have to live with myself

I believe I have found you again
if only in my dreams
then there is renewal
to give this life meaning
if only to believe

60,000 raves!!!

2009-11-11T01:11:10Z

Tommy Trend

+19 raves

woo hoo hoo!!!! 60,000 raves!!!! thanks to all you guys and thanks to Doc Ock who put me over the top!!! party on Wayne!!! party on Garth!!!

This Darkness Still

2009-11-06T05:08:56Z

Tommy Trend

+8 raves

You asked me Was it worth it Not to me it never did In this life I never could find my way I was always looking for a way out Why would you let me in After all the things I have done After all the places I have been And still you call You always knew I would fall Were you still there for me What else would I see What else is there left The past is the key to the future But I could not understand in time There was nothing left of me You said there was and I went on To live this life anew Still I cannot forget the blood on my hands A life forsaken And when someone talks about dreams it is a nightmare to me You ask Will I do it again Time will tell If I ever will Until then I am living in darkness still

This Time

2009-10-31T20:13:02Z

Tommy Trend

+12 raves

I gave in I'll never win I know it's just a game It's all the same When it comes crashing down like a wave You told me I'm the one you forgave Then life doesn't seem so bad after all But first I had to fall Hiding from you Hiding from me I told you I could not see When my eyes were open I not only saw the truth But all the lies as well Did I still believe in you This time I know what to do

Tears

2009-10-31T03:05:14Z

Tommy Trend

+14 raves

what do you want me to say that I knew you better than I thought I knew I had to walk away I thought that's what I had to do I cannot say sorry enough my path was clear you called my bluff nothing was held dear through it all what did I love only you only me it should have been enough but I was too blind I could not see my emotions were too much to overcome I could no longer do this alone you told me now we had begun and you let me know now the tears could come

Forgiveness

2009-10-24T02:59:05Z

Tommy Trend

+16 raves

I was thinking the other day what you and me have been through like we didn't have anything better to do but be healed I see the tears in your eyes I wondered if it was only a disguise but I know you have been through too much for that so what else could I say Is holding you a crime is love our only option to think these things out before our emotions get in the way to see the smile on your face then say hello being the person I know I can be And then and then I realize how much I care now to tell you how much you mean to me how much now I see Today I will begin today I will be a new person to lift up my heart to you to see these things through To be with you during the sunrise so I may see the light in your eyes then to breathe the same breath being forgiven so dear For Jaclyn

Judas

2009-10-20T04:11:41Z

Tommy Trend

+11 raves

I see death at my door I wonder has it been here before taking my measure it seems I only exist for its pleasure my soul wasn't enough it wants my life too you did it for me I did it for you what is the only thing left a gift a last breath a key a door a place I know I've been before it seems to me I never could be in love too many demands too much blood wanting me holding on to anything I was the only one left standing

To Be Free

2009-10-19T04:21:35Z

Tommy Trend

+12 raves

Will I escape the voices in my mind I don't know if I have enough time before I slip away to face another day Life is calling to me now I want to escape somehow to go back when I was young before this madness had begun So now I must be strong how can I when I never belonged to anyone not even me to face the future to finally be free

Where Love Can Be Found

2009-10-16T04:29:30Z

Tommy Trend

+13 raves

one cold morning I woke to the sound this question bothered me where can love be found I searched all over I hunted high and low I wanted it so bad I didn't know where to go I believed in myself to find it no matter the cost no matter how long before everything was lost then I discovered it was in me all the time all I needed was faith I needed to keep these things in mind I resolved to tell my friends they mean so much to me if it wasn't for them where else would I be I was looking for love I found you all here this place we know this place so dear walking hand in hand we find out we are on hallowed ground this is the place where love can be found